i’ve remade !
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wow i actually remembered the details for this account KJASDHKFEJRGH BUT ANYWY !!! i’m remaking <3
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❛ It hurts. More than dying ever did. There are days when I feel like I deserve this. ❜ /// for luis :')
DARKER SHADE / accepting.@mirrorbled
THE MASK has become his shield. his comfort. when the world opens up beneath him every morning he wakes, the mask is already in place. like a second skin, a second face. one that has slowly become his primary until there are days when he forgets the features affixed upon his skull. it has become a blur of paint & canvas, a texture now unknown to him after too many years spent without even glancing at his reflection. every iteration of his own face only served to make the numbers etched into his side burn more. burn hotter.
he has despised it. has hated the very sight of his face staring at him because it only served as a reminder of his failure. of his cowardice & how he had fled into the night instead of going to his brother & being with him. for they were together & would always be together. in death. in life. in every second that they existed, they would always be the beginning to each other’s end & the end to each other’s beginning.
dearest brother: walk with me, do not be weary. we are together & we are alive.
but here, when the same eyes as his own ( * beware the grey eyes mysterious ) stare at him & the same hair spills over a familiar crown, his mask cracks. he can feel the skin underneath the synthetic glass twist & crinkle as his eyebrows draw downwards & his lips curl. lithe fingers are already pulling his hood down & unlatching the mask until cool air finally graces his skin. his eyes blink, the light of reality now unfiltered through glass & technical displays. luis ( * listen, o’ children of the lost ; this is not who you were meant to be ) frames his brother’s face with his hands & grey stares into grey.
❛ you have never deserved what happened, ❜ said the light of the night sky, voice rumbling with gravitas & a rare solemnity. the sun’s blood that once resided within him has dimmed & all that is left are weathered features & intricate braids spilling down his shoulders & back. there is age in the depressions of his sockets & the dark circles lining his eyes. in the dry texture of his lips & the grey splitting through his dark hair. ❛ there is no one i know who deserves happiness & rest more. you are not a demon, lorenzo. you are my brother. ❜
can u imagine talon trying to use luis to further control lorenzo. like what if luis is captured and talon tries to pull a widowmaker with him :)) because luis is useful as an incredibly stealthy assassin it's just his loyalty that's the question. imagine talon slowly laying claim to the véspetras twins :))))
HELLO YES I’M gonna have to ask you to leave right this instant ! !! !!!! n O ! ! ! whatever you do don’t think about them meeting each other again. being happy. being at peace. eventually becoming vvv similar again & : // talon having their hands on lorenzo : // brainwashing him to kill luis bc he’s figured him out well before : // / you bET lorenzo would leave anyone in a heartbeat for luis. them wanting to keep the hold !!!!! or brainwashing lorenzo to encourage luis to join him in talon bc , ,, , , he’s vvv useful. luis will follow him anywhere. talon eventually claiming them & really getting rid of luis & lorenzo ,,,, ,, them forever being tezca & tlipoca.
I ALWAYS THINK about the fact lorenzo has most likely been brainwashed by t/alon at some point. he’s been working for them for a long time & he’s extremely useful. he’d wake up the next day with loss of memory & an awful headache ---- but he’d pass that on just another ol’ day.
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based on this suggestions blog. warning: these are pretty dark/angry & could be triggering to some people. please be cautious before proceeding!!
‘ all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly & me to not flinch away without meaning to. when will this stop affecting me? ’ ‘ all i want is to be soft & gentle, but i’m made out of steel & anger. maybe in another life, i guess. ’ ‘ beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so choose to see beauty in everything. ’ ‘ burning it all to the ground & force them to start again. they made you lose everything. now return the favor. ’ ‘ do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own? ’ ‘ do you trust me enough? do you trust me at all? ’ ‘ don’t you dare abandon me. ’ ‘ even after all you have done, i will always want you fighting on my side. ’ ‘ every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again. ’ ‘ everyone i have ever loved is long gone. i sing to the sky alone. ’ ‘ everyone i touch gets hurt, but i can’t stop. i touch & i touch & i touch & people get hurt. why can’t i ever stop? ’ ‘ everyone says i used to be a hero, but i can still taste the blood in my mouth & still feel bruises blooming because of my fists & my eyes are still stretched wide & terrified. ’ ‘ everything i love has been taken from me. what do i have left to fight for? ’ ‘ fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong. ’ ‘ friends are more important than any material object will ever be. ’ ‘ i am aching to hold you & keep you safe, to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you. ’ ‘ i am divine & you will bow before me. ’ ‘ i am fucking divine. ’ ‘ i am in control & i listen to no one. ’ ‘ i am not a good person. don’t pretend i am. ’ ‘ i am not accustomed to love. this is a learning experience. ’ ‘ i am not worth saving & i am not worth redemption. let me stay in the dark. ’ ‘ i am so tired all the time, all i want to do is rest. ’ ‘ i am too tired to deal with any of this. ’ ‘ i bow to no man. ’ ‘ i broke into sharp pieces when i broke & i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together. i’m sorry. ’ ‘ i can give you your wings back & i can show you to fly once more, if you only believe in me. ’ ‘ i cannot be saved. ’ ‘ i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people. i can bear this weight on my own. i have to. ’ ‘ i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you, but i loved you too much to notice. ’ ‘ i crave affection in the simplest way. ’ ‘ i deserve to hurt. i deserve to bleed. ’ ‘ i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me. ’ ‘ i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer, as long as it leaves your lips. ’ ‘ i don’t fight for you anymore. ’ ‘ i don’t want to let go of you. not now, not ever. ’ ‘ i don’t want to talk about it. i don’t want to remember. i don’t want to heal. all i want is for it to go away. ’ ‘ i don’t want you to touch me. please don’t touch me, just go away. ’ ‘ i feel anger deeper than my bones. i feel anger in my very soul. ’ ‘ i feel nothing at all, except for when i feel everything all at once. ’ ‘ i have fallen & though i may miss the sky, i belong here now. ’ ‘ i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine. ’ ‘ i have no home anymore. ’ ‘ i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand & then i remember nothing. ’ ‘ i see beauty in everything, but especially in you. ’ ‘ i should never have fallen in love with you. ’ ‘ i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me. now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away. ’ ‘ i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe. ’ ‘ i will never amount to anything. i am a failure in the worst type of way. ’ ‘ i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me & maybe someday it will be true. ’ ‘ if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore. ’ ‘ if you ask me to, i will set the whole world on fire, my dear. it’s all for you. ’ ‘ is it my fault? it’s my fault. it’s always my fault. ’ ‘ it’s not murder if they deserved it, right? ’ ‘ i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me, choking on anger & suffocating on sadness. ’ ‘ i’m in love with everything that hurts me. ’ ‘ i’m okay. i’m alright. this is all in my mind. ’ ‘ i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me. ’ ‘ i’m so cold & i can’t stop shaking. i am not who you think i am. ’ ‘ i’m so tired all the time & i just want to be awake again. ’ ‘ i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten. i just want someone to remember me. ’ ‘ i’m tired of fighting everything in my life. just make it stop. ’ ‘ i’m too tired to care. blow up, get angry at me. i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it. ’ ‘ jealousy burns within me. ’ ‘ just let me go in peace for once in my damn life. ’ ‘ loneliness is a disease & it leaves me empty & hollow, like sound goes through my body & bounces back. ’ ‘ made of starlight & sunshine, i shine brighter than they all know. ’ ‘ my anger is righteous & my actions are pure. ’ ‘ my chest aches & my lungs burn. this sickness comes from the inside. ’ ‘ my chest hurts & all i need is some comfort & understanding. ’ ‘ my chest hurts & i ache to go back to the sky. ’ ‘ my shoulders are aching where wings used to be & all i want is for them to stop hurting. ’ ‘ pull me apart & piece me together in your own way. make me perfect. ’ ‘ righteous fury throws through my veins & if you touch the people i love i will destroy you. ’ ‘ rise up. you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more. ’ ‘ say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue. ’ ‘ so much blood has been spilled in my name. time to make you believe it was in yours. ’ ‘ so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent, but not when i scream & plead for help? fuck off. ’ ‘ sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want. ’ ‘ stay away from my fucking friends. stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you. ’ ‘ stop treating me like i’m an idiot. you aren’t better than me in any way & you better remember that. ’ ‘ the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue. ’ ‘ the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it. ’ ‘ to love them is my divine right. ’ ‘ voices whisper from the shadows & they fill my mind with thoughts of you. ’ ‘ what did i to wrong to be so unloved? ’ ‘ what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it? ’ ‘ who the fuck do you think you are? ’ ‘ why can’t i ever fucking stop crying? ’ ‘ with a new year comes new tests & triumphs. let’s try to make the most out of it. ’ ‘ would it really kill you to be honest for once? ’ ‘ yes, i remember my wings breaking & being destroyed. i was powerless to stop it. ’ ‘ you are not required to love your parents, or to even like them. ’ ‘ you can’t hate me more than i hate myself, but you are more than welcome to try. ’ ‘ you may say you love me, but you love only a part of me. i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being. ’ ‘ you never fucking cared about me. don’t fucking lie about it. not to me. ’ ‘ you remind me of mint. fresh, sharp, kind of cold, but in a nice way. i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite. ’ ‘ you shine light in even the darkest parts of me. you are my sun. ’ ‘ you should fear me, but you don’t. i will be eternally puzzled, yet grateful. ’ ‘ you touch me & my skin burns & it burns for you, always you. ’
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o come he. come he —————— corruption divine. in form of a mortal man, AS A MORTAL MAN, forth he goes, in trail of that of which he brings; knowing that it lies only a short ways. for the one he is to meet, in the distance, could be seen so clearly. act of murder, completely witnessed. BUT THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE H I S PREY.
upon these arms that reached for welcome, a spare of a glance was only given, before he halted in place, without return of such a act. only GUARD. eyes narrowed. ❝ ————— what are you doing here, tlipoca?? ❞
ARMS CONTINUE TO ENDURE , stretched , lingering , lasting for only a few more seconds before they greet hips again. what does remain , however , is that gentleman smile. ❛ just being your favorite , like usual. ❜ shining boots tread over corpses as if they were nothing / not ever a father , a sister , a friend nor foe. mere compost to help the flowers grow.
❛ they were about to send in reinforcements. thus i had to rid of them swiftly. ❜ a glove reaches in a pocket to reach for a cigarette ---- one is offered toward the other with little to no hesitation. ❛ you think reaper or widow or sombra would do that ? in their wildest dreams. YOU’RE WELCOME by the way. ❜
‘ you shine light in even the darkest parts of me. you are my sun. ’ / from your dearest brother :^)
ALLURE & DELICACY. both alien beings. thirty years have perished ( * THIRTY , damn it ) filled with such harshness. days spent with such disgusted stares , cursed words & those to treat him like a mere hound. offer a treat , order him. tlipoca is no more than that. & these days —- they end with crimson palms & a sleepless night.
to be spoken to with such grace ! no , forget this is his blood , his own dearest sibling , still do pupils dart as if he converses with another. a strange sensation spreads ‘round his figure hereafter. through the bones , leaking through the veins & stroking skin. warmth ? LOVE ? a glove extends toward the chest. it’s still beating. it’s still there.
when do two become one ? when they reunite again.
❛ & you are my moon. ❜ they do not seem as if they spill from lorenzo , of all existences. there lies all things pure —- & it originates from him. I AM NOT WORTHY. ❛ always there , always with me. you’re the light to guide me out the dark. ❜
MEME / accepting.
DARK BROWS CREASE into exaggerated curiosity & hazels are forced to narrow. a finger to the lip , as if in intense debate , & he dares to radiate a warming aura. sweetened curving lips , pleasant mannerisms & a suit to match. he appears a complete painting of a GENTLEMAN ---- many to be fooled.
❛ you were part of o/verwatch , weren’t you ? ❜ this ‘ kindness ’ / such a cruel falsity indeed. ❛ skip the answer actually. i know. it’s a good thing you’re not apart of it anymore. too much stress ---- & i only work for them sometimes. ❜ @divinerest //
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HOLY WATER CAN NOT HELP YOU NOW. hours and armies COULDN’T KEEP ME OUT. I don’t want your money. I don’t want your crown SEE I HAVE COME TO BURN YOUR KINGDOM DOWN. and no rivers and no lakes can put the FIRE out. I’M GONNA RAISE THE STAKES. I’M GONNA SMOKE YOU OUT.
‘ everyone i touch gets hurt, but i can’t stop. i touch & i touch & i touch & people get hurt. why can’t i ever stop? ’
SHE DELIVERS SUCH utter sorrow. head hangs , golden locks fall to curtain angelic features & then lies he : a shadow among the light. a STATUE. made from concrete , none shall ever shatter his own crafted image & immobile expression. those hazels —– so warm , one would think —- somehow manage to appear cold ‘pon a single glance.
everyone he touches gets hurt , but he can’t stop. he touches & he touches & he touches & people get hurt. why can’t he ever stop ? because he enjoys it.
❛ have you ever tried not touching people ? ❜ the casualness to his tone delivers humor ( * to himself & himself only. ) spine against the wall , legs crossed , & a smirk without affection. ❛ you might as well isolate yourself. i’ve done it. no one to hurt , & no one to hurt you. ❜
MEME / accepting.
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based on this suggestions blog. warning: these are pretty dark/angry & could be triggering to some people. please be cautious before proceeding!!
‘ all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly & me to not flinch away without meaning to. when will this stop affecting me? ’ ‘ all i want is to be soft & gentle, but i’m made out of steel & anger. maybe in another life, i guess. ’ ‘ beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so choose to see beauty in everything. ’ ‘ burning it all to the ground & force them to start again. they made you lose everything. now return the favor. ’ ‘ do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own? ’ ‘ do you trust me enough? do you trust me at all? ’ ‘ don’t you dare abandon me. ’ ‘ even after all you have done, i will always want you fighting on my side. ’ ‘ every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again. ’ ‘ everyone i have ever loved is long gone. i sing to the sky alone. ’ ‘ everyone i touch gets hurt, but i can’t stop. i touch & i touch & i touch & people get hurt. why can’t i ever stop? ’ ‘ everyone says i used to be a hero, but i can still taste the blood in my mouth & still feel bruises blooming because of my fists & my eyes are still stretched wide & terrified. ’ ‘ everything i love has been taken from me. what do i have left to fight for? ’ ‘ fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong. ’ ‘ friends are more important than any material object will ever be. ’ ‘ i am aching to hold you & keep you safe, to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you. ’ ‘ i am divine & you will bow before me. ’ ‘ i am fucking divine. ’ ‘ i am in control & i listen to no one. ’ ‘ i am not a good person. don’t pretend i am. ’ ‘ i am not accustomed to love. this is a learning experience. ’ ‘ i am not worth saving & i am not worth redemption. let me stay in the dark. ’ ‘ i am so tired all the time, all i want to do is rest. ’ ‘ i am too tired to deal with any of this. ’ ‘ i bow to no man. ’ ‘ i broke into sharp pieces when i broke & i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together. i’m sorry. ’ ‘ i can give you your wings back & i can show you to fly once more, if you only believe in me. ’ ‘ i cannot be saved. ’ ‘ i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people. i can bear this weight on my own. i have to. ’ ‘ i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you, but i loved you too much to notice. ’ ‘ i crave affection in the simplest way. ’ ‘ i deserve to hurt. i deserve to bleed. ’ ‘ i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me. ’ ‘ i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer, as long as it leaves your lips. ’ ‘ i don’t fight for you anymore. ’ ‘ i don’t want to let go of you. not now, not ever. ’ ‘ i don’t want to talk about it. i don’t want to remember. i don’t want to heal. all i want is for it to go away. ’ ‘ i don’t want you to touch me. please don’t touch me, just go away. ’ ‘ i feel anger deeper than my bones. i feel anger in my very soul. ’ ‘ i feel nothing at all, except for when i feel everything all at once. ’ ‘ i have fallen & though i may miss the sky, i belong here now. ’ ‘ i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine. ’ ‘ i have no home anymore. ’ ‘ i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand & then i remember nothing. ’ ‘ i see beauty in everything, but especially in you. ’ ‘ i should never have fallen in love with you. ’ ‘ i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me. now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away. ’ ‘ i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe. ’ ‘ i will never amount to anything. i am a failure in the worst type of way. ’ ‘ i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me & maybe someday it will be true. ’ ‘ if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore. ’ ‘ if you ask me to, i will set the whole world on fire, my dear. it’s all for you. ’ ‘ is it my fault? it’s my fault. it’s always my fault. ’ ‘ it’s not murder if they deserved it, right? ’ ‘ i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me, choking on anger & suffocating on sadness. ’ ‘ i’m in love with everything that hurts me. ’ ‘ i’m okay. i’m alright. this is all in my mind. ’ ‘ i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me. ’ ‘ i’m so cold & i can’t stop shaking. i am not who you think i am. ’ ‘ i’m so tired all the time & i just want to be awake again. ’ ‘ i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten. i just want someone to remember me. ’ ‘ i’m tired of fighting everything in my life. just make it stop. ’ ‘ i’m too tired to care. blow up, get angry at me. i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it. ’ ‘ jealousy burns within me. ’ ‘ just let me go in peace for once in my damn life. ’ ‘ loneliness is a disease & it leaves me empty & hollow, like sound goes through my body & bounces back. ’ ‘ made of starlight & sunshine, i shine brighter than they all know. ’ ‘ my anger is righteous & my actions are pure. ’ ‘ my chest aches & my lungs burn. this sickness comes from the inside. ’ ‘ my chest hurts & all i need is some comfort & understanding. ’ ‘ my chest hurts & i ache to go back to the sky. ’ ‘ my shoulders are aching where wings used to be & all i want is for them to stop hurting. ’ ‘ pull me apart & piece me together in your own way. make me perfect. ’ ‘ righteous fury throws through my veins & if you touch the people i love i will destroy you. ’ ‘ rise up. you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more. ’ ‘ say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue. ’ ‘ so much blood has been spilled in my name. time to make you believe it was in yours. ’ ‘ so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent, but not when i scream & plead for help? fuck off. ’ ‘ sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want. ’ ‘ stay away from my fucking friends. stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you. ’ ‘ stop treating me like i’m an idiot. you aren’t better than me in any way & you better remember that. ’ ‘ the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue. ’ ‘ the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it. ’ ‘ to love them is my divine right. ’ ‘ voices whisper from the shadows & they fill my mind with thoughts of you. ’ ‘ what did i to wrong to be so unloved? ’ ‘ what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it? ’ ‘ who the fuck do you think you are? ’ ‘ why can’t i ever fucking stop crying? ’ ‘ with a new year comes new tests & triumphs. let’s try to make the most out of it. ’ ‘ would it really kill you to be honest for once? ’ ‘ yes, i remember my wings breaking & being destroyed. i was powerless to stop it. ’ ‘ you are not required to love your parents, or to even like them. ’ ‘ you can’t hate me more than i hate myself, but you are more than welcome to try. ’ ‘ you may say you love me, but you love only a part of me. i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being. ’ ‘ you never fucking cared about me. don’t fucking lie about it. not to me. ’ ‘ you remind me of mint. fresh, sharp, kind of cold, but in a nice way. i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite. ’ ‘ you shine light in even the darkest parts of me. you are my sun. ’ ‘ you should fear me, but you don’t. i will be eternally puzzled, yet grateful. ’ ‘ you touch me & my skin burns & it burns for you, always you. ’
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LIKE FOR A STARTER ! i’m gonna clear out drafts / inbox & remake icons to get lorenzo running again ♥ ♥
❛ YOU. ❜ seethed through gritted teeth. a hiss , a growl , a spitting of pure disgust. oft does the man savor a false act of friendliness for unfortunate souls ------ NO. the other will suffer with his true skin. rage , rage & rage. ❛ if you really were a know - it - all , you’d know not to speak to me ever again. ❜ @oholiness //
A SPEAR IS YANKED from the corpse of an unlucky. at his boots do others of the same fate lie , ripped from life , & of blood. so casual is his demeanor when wiping the crimson from stitching ( * ‘tis why he wears black , see ) & upon the sounds of approaching steps does he turn & grin a grin so spacious.
❛ --- oh ! finally you’re here. ❜ arms expand as if to greet with a cordial hug / such falseness. ❛ i already got rid of them all. no need to thank me --- i can see with your usual EXCITED expression that you’re absolutely amazed. ❜ @suollac //
HE IS ATTEMPTING to mask what is actuality. he is in PAIN : limbs burn like wildfire & veins sting like electricity. yet his dearest blood is present --- he won’t even allow himself to wince. gritted teeth & tightened grasps only. they sit with arms linked ( * forever joined by the hip ). agony is a common sensation , but silence forever ceases. ❛ everything hurts. ❜ & yet , with a smile. ❛ we should distract each other with stories. ❜ @wroughtdawn //
