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(Updated) Symptoms Compilation
Before anyone says see a professional I have every intention to and have tried before however every therapist I've been sent to has only ever focused on the moods and anxiety side of things so I was wondering if someone could give me any ideas of what these symptoms might point to that way I could look into seeing someone more specialised and suited to my needs instead of the same anxiety talk therapist.
1. Unusual Perceptual Experiences/Hallucinations- Mainly tactile and auditory though sometimes visual aswell.
2. Paranoia- Constantly feeling as though I'm being watched and followed. Or as though people are talking negatively about me and judging me.
3. Chronic heightened anxiety that doesn't lessen with familiarity.
4. Episodes of self isolation.
5. Unstable moods
6. Homicidal and Suicidal Ideation- Constant thoughts of harming/killing myself and others (and animals) and knowing how I'd do it as well.
7. Failure to uphold professional obligation
-uninterested in upholding college obligation, no interest or drive in passing the course or completing it/ No motivation or drive to do well and succeed
8. Unstable future plans
-shifting career plans, wanting to be a doctor one week, author the next, embalmer, unsure whether I'm going to be alive to see them through.
9. No childhood memories
- no solid childhood memories before age
10. Poor perception of time
- trouble telling whether it's been 10 minutes or one hour
11. Chronic feelings of emptiness
12. Poor communication skills
- failure to properly articulate my feelings and emotions and needs
13. obsession with gore/death/violence from a young age
(Intense obsession with graphic gore and violence and will hunt videos out)
14. Being indifferent/apathetic towards all kinds of relationships (familial, platonic, sexual or romantic) and not actively wanting them
15. Low empathy and sympathy- not being able to feel emotions for other people
16. Inability to maintain focus and keep a train of thought.
17. Chronic low self esteem
18. Self Harm- biting, hitting or cutting
19. Difficulty showing and receiving affection
20. Inappropriate emotional response
-won't cry over the death of a family member or pet, however will cry over pointless things like the specific food I want to eat not being in, will laugh at people getting hurt in extreme ways, or pull a knife on someone for changing the channel when I'm watching something
21. Unable to feel sad regarding death beit family or pet.
22. Intense connection to fictional characters to the point of trying to become and imitate them. Seeing myself as them.
23. Doesn't care about people's feelings or opinions unless they reflect me in a negative light.
24. Unstable sense of self- the sort of person I want to be, how I want to be perceived and what I want to do.
25.Ahedonia- Things that once interested me no longer do. Nothing interests me.
26. Executive dysfunction
27. Emotionally dependent on music
-will become unstable and irritable and paranoid without
28. Difficulty getting to sleep
29. Immature and rambled speech
- friends and family have said it's hard to understand and follow what I'm saying
30. Cant form strong opinions
31. Can't feel deep emotions or feelings
32. Chronic boredom.
33. Nearly completely apathetic.
hotch casually holding the assualt rifle in the bg
growing up I was always afraid of being Found Out. not sure what I was hiding. just my whole self I guess
cannibalism can actually be so romantic n intimate when you don’t have a bitch in your ear telling you it isn’t
There's just something about blood that's so romantic
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Having a personality disorder does not make you abusive.
Having narcassistic traits does not make you abusive.
Not understanding or experiencing empathy does not make you abusive.
Stop demonising cluster B personality disorders.
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