i miss girl meets world

i hope it’s ok to say this bc i don’t want to disregard anyone’s experience with mental illness or life in general, but i have a really bad anxiety disorder, and i’ve needed to talk myself down more than i should have to after watching 13rw season 2

13rw season 2 put me in a really terrifying headspace where i was just like “holy shit the world is a horrific place and everything/everyone wants to hurt me and nothing actually gets better” !!!! as i’m writing this, i’m realizing that if this show was doing what it says it wants to be doing, it would not be making me (or others) feel this way. and i’ve needed to repeat to myself that while 13 reasons why deals with a lot of “real life” topics and issues- it is not real life. this show that says it wants to help people, should not be putting its viewers in the same headspace as its characters. it should not want to do that to you (or me). this show is a compilation of evils (most unnecessary) that the writers have basically drawn from a hat in order to “bring awareness” and “help people”, but it is NOT an accurate portrayal of real life, and i think they need to stop presenting the show as if it is, because it is literally terrifying the shit out of me. when we watch, we are being shown the living terrors of over a dozen kids in each episode. that’s not normal. i’m not saying that’s a bad thing, but that is not normal. when you put it into context like that (aka over a dozen protagonists with their own demons that get put into EXPLICIT visual context), i think you begin to realize how overwhelming that exposure can be

idk about any of you, but i will not watch a 13 reasons why season 3, and i hope there’s no third season. i literally cannot risk being put in the same place the 2nd season put me in. i feel like they put those warnings in the beginning of the episodes solely so they don’t lose credibility, and not because they actually care about their viewers. but they lose credibility when we have no idea what we’re about to be shown in the episode. there is no way for us to know what we can and cannot handle when there’s no way for us to know what’s coming. the sexual assault warning in the 13th episode in NO WAY prepared me for the context of the actual scene. the warnings are pure shit

anyway, the show tells you not to watch if you can relate to any of the themes they touch upon. i personally don’t think it matters if you can relate to the show or not. it’s anxiety inducing, and terrifying regardless

hello this is me announcing that i am anti 13 reasons why!!!!