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I've never felt so just innately happy before.. so stable and comfortable and safe and loved :)

My mooma passed away. It doesn't feel real.

our wedding is in 2 weeks :))) a year after we've been married, now we'll finally have our day and I'm so excited :) so many good things coming after too. Thank u 2023 for already being so good to me

mehyam

I don't talk shit about you on the internet. I don't tell everyone what happened between us, you conditioned me to push everyone away. I don't tell the internet how you conditioned me to almost anticipate crying every night when I go to sleep and to constantly think problems were my fault. To think my accomplishments were nothing more than attempts to belittle your own. I don't tell the internet how I felt as if I couldn't tell the person I loved I was hurting, because you were hurting first and it was too much to ask for some reassurance. I don't tell the internet how I begged you more than once to stay with me because I wanted to hold onto you more than anything but you were upset by something else and decided breaking up was the only option. I don't tell the internet all the nights I cried myself to sleep after you repeatedly broke my heart and told me I didn't deserve anything. I don't tell the internet how you would only prioritize yourself and what you wanted, manipulating me into thinking you cared about me. You manipulated my love on more than one occasion, and I kept on making excuses and let you because I wasn't ready to accept reality. I really truly hope you take an introspective look at what you did to me before you make yourself a victim and if you ever decide to move onto love someone else. Recognize what you did and do better for them. You helped me understand what I don't want and how I do not deserve to be treated. I loved you deeply, and I hope you don't treat the other people you love as if they are out to get you.

#personal #moving forward