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Itβs a good idea to practice this so you know how to do it in an emergency! You donβt even have to be strong (this guy is pretty muscular) to do it, itβs the force of the swing that makes them break.
Alternatively, if youβre being zip tied or tied up in general itβs a good idea to present your fists to the person instead of having them grab and force them. That way, you can present them in an easier to escape position.
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The tutorials I followed on this website were super helpful and show a few methods of breaking out of zip ties. It take ten minutes to learn and could quite literally save your life!
While this technique is worth knowing in the event of kidnapping or human trafficking, and so forth, it will not work on police issue flex-cuffs, which happen to be far thicker than standard zip-ties, are double cuffed, and have a reinforced centre.
Attempting this technique with flex-cuffs will firstly cut off circulation to your hands due to the proposed need to tighten them, which is dangerous for many reasons when detained in them for a prolonged period of time, as once on, they will not be loosened until they are removed entirely. And secondly, will likely lead to you breaking your wrists as the force required to break free of them exceeds what can be generated by the over-average male, regardless of how strong they may believe themselves to be. Your best bet, if you can get to relative safety first, is to use the corner of a wall to wear the plastic center-piece down enough to break free.
Please read the last comment before you permanently fuck your wrist.
PLEASE READ THE LAST COMMENT BEFORE YOU PERMANENTLY FUCK YOUR WRIST
Probably also worth mentioning that at least with the first technique, you also want to make sure that the fastening bit (which is the weakest point) is in between your wrists if possible. Theyβre more likely to break.
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Seriously that tiger flopped over with more drama than you would find in a middle school play death scene I love it.Β
Anyone else reminded of this?
This is also how domestic cats who grew up with other cats initiate play wrestling! They roll over and bat their paws as an invitation. My parentsβ cats do this all the time. Itβs also why sometimes your cat will bite you when you pet their belly. They see play fighting and go for your hand.
Paring: Tom Holland x Reader, Shawn Mendes x Reader
Warnings: fluff, little angst
Words: 6k
Summary:Β What would happen when you fall for the school bad boy? What if your best friends has fallen for you as well? Who would you choose in this love triangle?
A/N: If there is someone who would like to check my writings before I post them because I really could use some help! let me know if you are interested! + ofc thank you @courtneychicken Β for helping me out on this one!
requests are open!
It was finally Friday, after a hard week, you were so ready for the weekend. You turn around in your bed, your eyes fall onto the clock. Your eyes widen as you realize you were late to class. You jump up from the bed, and grab the first thing you see on the floor, a pair of black jeans and a sweater. You put them on, find some shoes, put your laptop into your backpack and run to the bathroom to brush your teeth.
βFuck, fuck, fuckβ¦β You groan to yourself, as you run back into the room, looking for your phone.
βCan you be a little quieter, please?β You hear your roommate mumble into her pillow. You just ignore her, grab your phone from your bed and run out of the door. You had never been late before, two years into college and today was the day you would be late to class. You were about to cry when you ran to the building where you had your class, hoping the professor wouldnβt kick you out. Quietly, you walk into the class, you could see the disappointed look on your professors face as you look around the classroom. The classroom was full, and your normal seat was taken by some girl. You let out a groan and look around the class, until your eyes fall on an empty seat on the back row. As you get closer, you see who is sitting next to the empty seat.
βFuck meβ¦β You groan quietly, so you are the only one who can only hear. You walk up to the seat, and look at the brown haired boy. βCan I sit here?β Usually his best friend would sit next to him, but you see the blonde boy sit next to a girl few rows down.
βYeah, sure darling.β His British accent would get every girls knees weak, and probably yours too, but you were thinking too much into the fact that you had to sit next to one of the most popular guys in the whole fucking school. Everybody knew him, his sexy British accent, perfect curly hair, his perfectly brown eyes, those amazing cheekbones, his kissable pink lips. His whole face was picture perfect, even his slightly crooked nose. He had slept with probably every girl in the school, the normal fuckboy who you would usually try to avoid at all cost. You sit down next to him, and grab your laptop from your bag, trying to sit as far as you can from him, the girl on the other side of him didnβt like how she didnβt get his attention anymore. You could hear her sigh loudly multiple times. You turn to look at her, but you are met with his brown eyes burning a hole into you. βCan I help you?β You whisper to him, not wanting to get the attention from the professor. An evil smirk forms on his small lips as he leans closer to you.
βAre you new, darling? Havenβt seen you before,β you just let out a sigh, and shake your head for βnoβ, turning to look at the professor and trying to catch up with everything you had missed already. Were you really that invisible?
βWords, darling, words,β you just ignore him, trying to concentrate on the professors words, but Tom didnβt like how you ignored him, so he leaned even closer to you. You could feel his hot breath on your cheek. βTell me your name beautiful.β You turn to look at him with an annoyed face.
βStop with the nicknames, you donβt need to know my na-β You were cut off by the professor. βIs there something you would like to share, Miss?β You feel every eye in the room look at you, you hated attention. Your mouth dries out, and you canβt get any words out. You were frozen, mouth open, and eyes wide as you look at your professor.
βNo, sorry, I was talking to herβ¦ she just told me to shut up.β Tom saves you from the professor, but all of the students in the room still gaped at you, every girl whispering to each other. You feel like the earth could swallow you up right about now. The professor starts talking again, and everybody turns to look at him again but people turn to look at you from time to time. βNow is the moment you thank me, darling.β You could tell that a smile was resting on his face by his voice. You close your mouth and turn to look at him. βThank you.β You whisper to him, before turning back to the lecture. Luckily, Tom doesnβt talk to you for the rest of the class. You try your hardest to catch up with everything, but fail, because you could feel the eyes burning into you. As soon as the class ends, you grab your things and run out of the class. Speed walking to your next class, but you feel someoneβs hand on your shoulder and you turn to face the devil himself, again. βWhat?β You groan to the boy, really not in the mood to talk to him anymore.
βI didnβt get your name, darling.β You push his hand off your shoulder, looking at his stupidly beautiful face, and a smirk playing on his lips. If he wasnβt known for being an asshole and a fuckboy, you would gladly talk to him! He was a really good looking guy, but you didnβt want to be in a mess, like his life. You didnβt need more stress to your own life. And, the only reason he was even talking to you, was because he wanted something from you.
βIf I tell you my name, will you leave me alone?β You ask him. You see the smirk drop for a second, and only for a second.
βMaybe. If you are lucky, my love.β He runs his hand through his perfect locks. Your eyes do a run down. He was wearing black jeans, a t-shirt and a jean jacket. He looked good, really good.
βWhatβs with the nicknames?β you let out a groan, and turn around to walk to your next class, Tom falling into step with you.
βDonβt you like them, darling?β You give him a glare, taking your phone out from your pocket to look at the time. Luckily, you only had one class left, then you could go have lunch with Shawn and then finally go back to your dorm room to have a nap, before watching netflix and drinking wine alone in your room for the rest of the night. Β Β
βIf you tell me your name, I promise to not call you by any other name.β You let out a sigh again, not getting why he was talking to you at all.
βWhat do you even want from me?β Β You stop suddenly in front of your next class and Tom bumps into you.
βIs there such harm in wanting to get to know a beautiful girl?β He asks you, causing you to face him once more. βPlease, I have classβ¦β You tell him, trying to get him to leave you alone. Canβt he see, you arenβt interested in him? You donβt want to talk to him, why is he still talking to you?
βOkay, I promise to leave you alone, for now. If, you tell me your name?β he gives you the cutest puppy dog look, almost as cute as your best friends, itβs hard to say no to him now. You were a sucker for puppy dog eyes, you never could say no if someone gave you them.
βY/Nβ you give in, telling him your name. βCan I go in now?β you turn to walk into the class, but Tomβs words stop you.
βAre you coming tonight?β you turn to face him again, raising your eyebrow.
βWhere?β
βTo the party at my frat house. Everybody is coming. I hope Iβll see you there, darling.β He lied to you, he still called you by that stupid nickname.
βNo, thank you.β You tell him before walking into the classroom, leaving Tom to look at you dumbfounded, no girl before you had turned him down. That was what made him more interested in you. You groan as you sit on your seat, next to one of your best friends. He looks at you with a worried look on his face.
βIs everything okay?β You give him a tight lipped smile. Shawn Mendes, one of the popular kids, but he was one of the nicest people you knew. He had a loving heart, and always wanted the best for others, not a fuckboy or an asshole, not like his other frat mates.
βBumped into your friend.β you tell him as you begin getting all of your stuff out.
βWhat friend?β He asks you, still looking at you. You canβt keep your smile away, you were so lucky to call him your best friend. βTom.β βTom as in Tom Holland?β He asked you, and you just give him a nod.
βYup.β He let out a laugh and you turn to look at him. βWhat?β
βWasnβt that a joke?β Shawn asks you and you just shake your head for no. βNope, not a jokeβ¦ I wish it was.β you turn to face him, he had the most beautiful hazel eyes, he had his long brown curly locks, he had well build body because he played hockey and worked out almost every single day, he was wearing the schools hoodie and jeans, still looking like a fashion model, like always.
βWhat did he want from you?β He asks you, βThat sounded wrong, sorry, Iβm just confused.β He continued, see a nice guy.
βI donβt know, I was late for my class and the only free seat was next to him, so I had to sit next to him, and then he just started talking to me, even though I didnβt show him any interest. He insisted he should know my name.β you explained.
βThatβs why then.β He told you.
βWhat do you mean?β you asked him, still confused. You knew that Tom didnβt want to get to know you to be friends, he had other things in mind. Everybody knew that he had slept with almost every girl in school, maybe in the whole town and was that asshole who promised to call back, but never would.
βYou didnβt jump at him like other girls do, thatβs why he was so interestedβ¦ thatβs what he does. He gets everything he wants.β Shawnβs face drops a little, he was trying to protect you from harm and you knew that, but you werenβt a baby, you could defend yourself. βYou donβt have to worry, I will never fall into his trap.β You tell him, he doesnβt have the chance to reply, because the professor walks into the class. Β After class, you and Shawn walk to the nearby diner. Itβs a 15 minute walk away from the school ground. Talking about some school work, as you both reached the diner, Shawn as the gentleman he was, opens the door and walking in after you.
βIβm so hungry, I havenβt eaten anything yet.β you tell him, as you sit down in the booth, in the back corner of the diner. This was your spot. Β You came here almost every Friday after class to eat lunch together, and catch up with each others lives.
βDidnβt have time for breakfast?β Shawn teases you.
βWhat can I get you two?β You turn to look at the waitress. She was pretty, long blond hair, big boobs and always trying to show them off for Shawn, way too much make up for your liking, she always tried to flirt with Shawn even though Shawn clearly wasnβt interested in her.
βmm.. the usual?β you turn to look at Shawn, clearly asking you what you wanted and you just give him a smile and nod. Β
βCoke and bacon cheeseburger for you?β The girl asked Shawn as she leans forwards, you try not to look at her boobs that were almost hanging out of her blouse.
βYeahβ¦β Shawn turned to face her before turning to you with a grossed look on his face, you two had an inside joke about the girl who tried her hardest to get Shawns attention, by leaving her number on the check or slipping a paper with her number on it with his food.
βAnd for you?β She turned to face you, before looking up and down at your outfit with a judging look on her face.
βMy girlfriend here would have the same as always, so a cheeseburger and a chocolate milkshake.β Shawn told her, not looking at her again. She lets out a loud groan, before walking away.
βOh, wow, girlfriend?β You ask him raising your eyebrow, trying your hardest to keep a straight face.
βMm, my girlfriend.β He just says and you two broke into a laugh. βMaybe now she will leave me alone.β he tells you in fits of laughter. Shawn was the most amazing person you knew, you were so lucky to have this beautiful human being in your life, he didnβt hang out with lot of girls, yeah, he sometimes dated or had hookups but you were his only girl friend.
βMaybe, maybe not, she is pretty invested in you.β You giggle to him, shutting up quickly as you see her walking up to you with the food.
βHere.β She give you the food and walks off quickly.
βIβm pretty sure she spit into my food.β You let Shawn know as you look over your food.
βHope not, if she did she would have spit in to m-β Shawnβs words are cut off when the bell on the door rings. Someone walks in, and you can hear that same girl yelp from excitement.
βHeyy, baby!β Her voice is so high pitched that it almost hurts your ears. You try to see who she was talking to, but Shawnβs head was in the way. Shawn is looking at them, and when he turns around, he lets out a sigh. βFuck me..β Shawn groans. You move a little, so you can see who made Shawn swear, and you mumbled the same thing as your eyes meet with the same brown eyes you had seen already earlier today. The smirk on his face was huge when he realized who he was looking at, totally ignoring the waitress. βNo, no, noβ¦β You whisper yell at Shawn but he canβt even react, when Tom abruptly sits next to you and his friend next to Shawn, giving you a smile and nodding at Shawn as a hello.
βFancy seeing you here, darling.β Tom wraps an arm around your shoulder, when his eyes land on Shawn. βMaate.β
βTom.β
βYou two know each other?β Β Tom asks, still looking at Shawn. You push his arm off, and turn to face him. βWe were trying to have a nice lunch together, soβ¦β You take a sip from your milkshake, keeping your eyes on Shawn who is looking at you, clearly as uncomfortable as you are with the unwanted company.
βYeah, so maybe you two could leave?β Shawnβs eyes turn to look at the boy next to him, and then to Tom. βShawn, mate.β Tom laughs out but when Shawn doesnβt laugh with him, he turns to look at his frat mate.
βTom, maybe we should leave the love birds alone?β The other boy had a strong British accent too, you were pretty sure his name was Harrison.
βDo you want us to leave, darling?β You turn to face him and give him the best fake smile.
βYes, please.β You felt bad for being so mean, but you didnβt like how he had a big dick energy, you werenβt into him and you really wanted to spend some time with Shawn, because you knew he had that party tonight and he had been so busy with hockey and school that this was the first time you two were hanging out in a week. Β Β
βOuch, that hurt love.β He laughed, βAre you coming tonight?β He asked you again.
βNo, Iβm not. Β Thank you, bye.β You keep up with the fake smile, seeing how Harrison gets up.
βSee you later.β Harrison says with a small wave, before walking to another group of friends on the other side of the diner.
βYou should come darling, it would be a lot of fun.β He tries to get you say yes to him, βand hey Shawn will be there.β He tells you, getting up, still looking at you.
βNo, thank you.β You tell him before taking a bite of your food, that was already getting cold.
βThink about it love, hope I see you later.β He gives you a flash of his beautiful smile, and you just groan, turning to face Shawn again.
βTell me how you are so nice, Β but your frat mates are like, like him?β You ask him, as you stuff your face with food.
βI donβt know.β he sighs and starts to eat his food too. βSorry for that though.β you give him a small smile and shake your head.
βNo Shawn, itβs fine and Iβm pretty sure he came here just because he likes to annoy me.β You tell him, offering him your milkshake, like you always did.
βHe wasnβt wrong, you should come tonight.β Shawn had tried for so long to get you to a party with him, but never had you gone with him, never been a big party girl, not even in high school.
βShaawn, you know I donβt like parties.β You tell him, you would love to spend time with him, but you donβt want to spend your Friday night in a house full of horny, drunk teenagers.
βYou would make it so much better for me, please come.β He was trying and you really wanted to give in to him, but you really didnβt want to be third wheeling all night. You knew that girls liked him, and if you were there, you were sure you would scare them away from him.
βYou donβt want me there, you canβt get any girls and you know I will be glued to you, if I was there with you.β βThatβs not true! And if you were there, I wouldnβt need any other company. I love spending time with you, please y/n comeβ¦ β he gave you the cutest puppy eyes and you would have to be heartless to say no to him now.
βI wanna say no, but how can I say no to you?β You groan to him and you can see the most widest smile spread on his face. βYes! thank you, thank you. I promise, if you donβt like it we can leave.β the world didnβt deserve someone like Shawn, you just nod and you two talk about everything and anything as you two eat. Β Shawn paid for the food, even though you tried to pay yourself, but then he was quick to tell you it was because you were coming tonight, Β even though you hated parties. He walked you back to your dorm room and told you he would pick you up at 8pm, because he didnβt want you to walk to the frat house alone. You were just laying in bed watching Netflix, Β when you hear a knock on your door. You get up and open the door to see Shawn looking good as always, wearing black skinny jeans, nice button up shirt, jean jacket and brown boots. βHeyy?β You were confused as to why he was here already. He was looking you up and down, you felt a little uncomfortable with him seeing your messy bun, way too small sleeping shorts and in a top, showing a lot of skin. βWhy arenβt you ready?β He asks you as he walks into your room, closing the door after himself. He sits on your bed, looking around the room.
βWhat do you mβ¦β You look at the clock and realize that it was almost 8pm. βOh, no Iβm so sorry I was watching Netflix and I didnβt realize it was so late already, Iβm so sorry, I will get dressed. I will be quick.β Β you started to ramble at the same time as you looked through your closet for something to wear.
βNo, Itβs okayβ¦ take your time.β He gives you a comforting smile and you thank him before turn back to the closet. βWhat do people wear to parties?β You ask Shawn as you go through everything you own, not sure what you should wear.
βNormal clothes?β He asked you and letβs out a small giggle. Shawn giggled sometimes and it was the cutest thing on earth. You grab your favorite pair of mom jeans, they fit you perfectly and a black turtleneck long sleeved crop top. βIs this okay?β You ask him and show him the clothes you picked out.
βYeah.β he smiles at you. You walk into the bathroom and change into the outfit, doing your makeup look quickly and curling your hair. You walk out of the bathroom and see Shawn laying on your bed, looking up at the ceiling. You would just like to curl up next to him and cuddle.
βOkay, I think Iβm ready.β You tell him as you look for a pair of shoes. Your eyes land on a cute pair of boots, putting them on and turning to face Shawn. He gets up from your bed and looks at you.
βYou look really good.β You blush a little, and turn around to hide it from him, finding some simple jewelry to look a little fancier. You grab your phone and walk out of the door, Shawn following you. βSorry, I wasnβt ready.β You apologize to Shawn as you two make your way to his frat house. Β Wrapping your hands around your body, you shiver. It was autumn and you cursed yourself for forgetting your jacket.
βItβs okay, I told you already.β You turn to look at Shawn, who is already looking at you with a soft smile on his face. βAre you cold?β
βMaybe a little, itβs fine.β You tell him but he takes his jacket off and wraps it around your shoulder.
βHere, I donβt want you to get sick.β He tells you, you thank him for being so kind. You two reach the frat house, itβs already full of people, smelling like alcohol and sweat as you two walk into the house, you hate it. βletβs get drinks!β Shawn yells over the music to you and he takes your hand, leading you to the kitchen thatβs full of alcohol. You were pretty sure you hadnβt seen so much alcohol before. βWow.β You laugh out as you look around, itβs just like in the movies and you would prefer being in your own bed watching this on your laptop, rather than actually be here.
βHere you go.β He gives you a red solo cup full of something.
βWhat is this?β You ask him, not sure if you want to drink it, it smells bad and you were more a wine kind of girl, not a vodka kinda one.
βThere is vodka and some juice in it, try it.β You take a sip from the cup and cringe a little at how strong it was. βToo strong?β Shawn laughs and you just give him a nod. βI would offer you a beer, but I know you donβt like beer.β
βItβs okay, I will take it slow.β you two walk around for a while until you find yourself on the couch, there wasnβt much room, so you were basically sitting on Shawnβs lap. Talking about anything and everything, you were on your third cup of alcohol, it didnβt taste so bad anymore and you find yourself liking the party a little.
βDo you wanna go play beer pong?β Shawn asks you, you never had played beer pong before.
βI will suck, but if you want to.β You tell him and he leads you to the table where some students were playing beer pong, it looked fun.
βWe will play next!β Shawn letβs them know and after they finish their game, you and Shawn start getting ready to play. βWell, well, wellβ¦ we are going to win.β You hear familiar voice talk, you look up to see Tom and Harrison standing on the other side of the table, a smirk resting on Tomβs face like always. βYou can wish, Holland.β Shawn teases Tom and gives you the first ping pong ball. βShow him.β He whispers to your ear, lips touching your ear, causing shivers to run through your body. You throw it and it lands in the cup.
βOMG!β You yell from the happiness and shock, Shawn picking you up.
βThatβs my girl!β he puts you back down still laughing, his breath fanning over your face, smelling like alcohol. You were so close to him, Β just wanting to lean in and kiss him, it had to be the alcohol talking.
βLetβs make this more fun.β Tomβs voice brings you back to reality and you turn to look at him, Shawnβs hand still resting on your lower back. Tom isnβt smirking any more, he looked angry, maybe jealous?
βHow?β You ask him and the smirk come back on his face.
βIf you win, I do what you want and if we win, you will do what we want you to do.β He tells you and you just let out a laugh.
βI donβt want anything from you.β you let him know. βCan we just play the game?β
βYeah, letβs just play.β You hear Shawn tell him, clearly not interested in Tomβs offer.
βYou two are boring.β Tom letβs you know and you start playing again. You two were on fire, your first time playing and you and Shawn were winning the game.
βCome on Harrison, we have to win!β You hear Tom talk to his friend and you let out a giggle, not getting why he wanted to win so badly, Β it was just a game. Harrison misses the cup and then Shawn makes the last cup and you two win. βYeees.β Shawn pick you up again spins you around couple of times. βIs there anything you canβt do?β He asks you as he puts you back down.
βI donβt know, Iβm pretty good at everything.β you joke to him. βIt was a good game.β Shawn tells Tom before taking your hand walking you two back to the living area, sitting on the couch and pulling you next to him. βYou are amazing.β Shawn tells you and you just laugh at him, happy to be here with him.
βYou are too.β You lean your head on his shoulder, closing your eyes breathing him in, he smelled like alcohol and sweat but still he smelled good to you.
βDo you want another drink?β Shawn whispers in your ear, after you finished the last of your drink.
βYeah, that would be nice.β You thank him as he leaves you alone on the couch, you look around the room, lots of familiar faces, a couple of people you would call friends but not close ones, your eyes land on Tom who is already looking at you with that stupid smirk on his face, he walks up to you and sits down in Shawnβs place, way too close for your liking.
βHey love.β He smiled at you, surprisingly he wasnβt as drunk as you thought he would be.
βHey Tom.β Not letting your eyes meet his again.
βAre you liking the party?β
βSurprisingly, yes.β you tell him the truth and make the mistake of looking at him, his eyes were like a chocolate pool you just wanted to swim in.
βI like you.β You giggle at his words and shake your head.
βYou like everything that is not the same sex as you.β You tell him still letting your eyes lay on his beautiful face. Now that you were little drunk you liked the feeling of him trying to get your attention.
βThatβs not true my love, not true at all.β he places his hand on the back of the couch.
βWhatever helps you sleep at night.β you tell him, looking around the room, where did Shawn go? he should be back by now.
βWhat are you looking for?β Tomβs words bring your eyes back to him. βShawn.β You tell him getting up from the couch, trying to find him in the mass of people, he promised not to leave you alone tonight.
βLover boy is gone? I can help you find him.β You turn to look at him, was he joking?
βWould you do that?β You ask him confused, why would he help you?
βYeah, why not?β You give him a tight lipped smile and walk to the kitchen still looking around.
βFound him.β You hear Toms voice, you turn to look at him and he see him pointing to something, your eyes land on Shawn making out with some girl. You can feel a lump in back of your throat.
βOhβ¦β You sigh and look around not knowing what to do. βI should leave, thanks for helping.β You mumble to Tom, walking past him, pushing people out of your way trying to get out as fast as you can, feeling like you were trapped in a small box, not knowing why seeing Shawn with someone else made you so upset.
You get out of the house and let out a long sigh as you start walking, wrapping your hands around your body, the autumn wind cold against your skin, missing Shawnβs jacket, you were freezing. βy/n wait!β You hear someone call after you, you turn around fast hoping to see Shawn but you see Tom running after you. βAre you okay?β Tom asks you when he is closer to you. βYeah, justβ¦ Shawn promised to be with me a-and I just.. I donβt know.β You start walking again looking straight ahead, you suddenly feel something warm wrapped around your shoulders. βYou will freeze out here.β You look at Tom, a soft smile resting on his lips, making you smile back at him. βThanks for the jacket.β You bring the fabric closer to your body trying to keep yourself warm.
βWanna get something warm to drink?β
βW-what?β βLetβs grab something hot to drink from the diner and then I will walk you home, okay?β Β You never knew that a bad boy like him would have good side like this unless he had something else on his mind.
βAre you trying to hookup with me?β You ask him letting out a laugh.
βWasnβt thinking about that, but if you want I will not say no.β you laugh at him and nod.
βYeah, why notβ¦ for the drink, not for the sexβ Tom laughs at you and you feel this new warmth inside of you, even his laugh was beautiful. You two walk to the same diner where you and Shawn had been earlier today, you and Shawn always sat on the same spot, it was your thing but you didnβt feel comfortable to go sit there without him, so you walk to the other side of the diner and sit down next to the window.
βWhat do you want to drink, are you hungry?β Tom ask you, not sitting down yet.
βmmβ¦ tea would be nice and no thanks iβm okay with no food.β You tell him and he walks to the cash register, you turn to look out of the window, it was dark outside so you could see your reflection from the window. Disappointed in Shawn for leaving you, he hadnβt never left you alone like that before and that was why you were so confused and hurt by him, and maybe because you may or may not have feelings for him. It was crazy he wouldnβt ever like you more than a friend and you knew that but still seeing him with someone else hurt you and it hurt more because he promised to be there with you the whole night. Tom sitting across from you brings you back from your thoughts, looking up at him you see a small smile on his lips.
βAre you okay, love?β You give him a smile and nod your head.
βYeah, Iβmβ¦β you put your hair into a messy ponytail to get it off of your face.
βIβm sorry that he left you alone.β You look at your hands, not wanting his pity.
βNo, itβs fine. Iβm happy that he got some action tonight.β You lie to him. The waiter brings you two teaβs and fries. You thank him and blow air to the hot tea. βThank you for doing this for me.β You can feel the alcohol leave your body slowly and a nasty headache coming on.
βOf course, I canβt leave a pretty girl in need.β He jokes and his words make you blush, trying to hide it by taking a sip from your tea that is way too hot for drinking so you burn your tongue. βSo tell me about yourself.β You look back at Tom and you two talk for hours about each other, getting to know one another, he really was a nice guy and now when it was just you and him he wasnβt an asshole, he was a really nice, caring guy.
βAre you ready?β you ask him, it was almost three in the morning and you were ready for bed.
βYeah, let me go pay first.β He leaves some money on the table and you two walk out of the diner, heading back to your dorm room.
βThank you.β You turn to look at him and find him already looking back at you with this soft look on his face. βI had really nice time with you.β Tom tells you, you automatically lean a little closer to him so your shoulders are touching.
βYeah, me too.β You let him know, you really did have an amazing time with him, you could see you both becoming friends, you talk a little on your walk back, you stop at the building door, turning to face him.
βI hope I can see you again.β Tomβs words make you smile, you give back his jacket.
βWell, you have my number.β You had to admit that you had been flirting with him in the diner and it actually felt good when he flirted back.
βI will text you, count on that.β
βI will wait for your text then, Tommy.β You had given him a nickname too, he had told you that you would be the only one who could call him that because he hated it, but from your mouth, he liked the sound off of it.
βThank you again.β You donβt know what came over you and you lean in and peck his lips. βOh my godβ¦. Iβm so sorry I donβt know why I did that.β You felt so embarrassed, why would you kiss him?
βItβs okay.β Tom whispers before placing his hand on your cheek and bringing you into another passionate kiss, it felt like your whole body was on fire, like the world around you two disappeared. It was like there was only you and him. You slowly separate from each other. βGood night love.β you kiss his cheek for the last time and walk to the door turning to look at him, still standing there staring at you with a smile on his lips.
βNight Tommy.β you call out as you walk inside, closing the door after you and running up the stairs to your door, opening it and taking off your boots as soon as you are inside, the light was on so you thought that your roommate was still awake. βI just had the best kiss, I have ever had.β You tell her and stand up, stunned to see Shawn standing next to your bed. βShawn?β
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Harrison snatched the edge of your jacket, a bit more forcefully than he intended, he pulled you back to where he had stopped running. You immediately fought against him, shoving into him with all the anger and frustration in you, not at him of course, but he was just the only person there to take it all without pushing you away. Your movements soon slowed down, breaking apart from Haz, you took a few backward steps until you turned away from him altogether.
βYou canβt just walk away from this!β he shouted after you, but what did he want you to do? You werenβt going to go back, so the only place you could go was anywhere away from all signs of Tom, including his best friend and family, even if it wasnβt their fault.
βWatch me!β
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based off this request:Β in the last few months Tom pushes the reader away so she decides to give him a lovely surprise with a little help from Tomβs fam and Haz, here I come: maybe in the middle of the process Tom calls the reader and breaks up with her βcause idk sheβs clingy? and sheβs super embarrassed because Tomβs family heard it all?
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Tomβs eyelids drooped, weighing heavy with exhaustion, the warmth and comfort from your head nuzzled in between his chest and the comforter drew out the stress from his body. You were the only one he felt a hundred percent comfortable with on days like this, no one he could trust more than his girl.
The bed was crammed in the corner of his shared dorm room, barely big enough to fit one person, let alone two. The only way to make it work was by lying over the top of him, a system both of you had grown so accustomed to, the bed almost felt too big if you werenβt in it with Tom. His little corner was spiced up with movie and tv show posters, all the things that made his eyes sparkle with excitement and hopes to one day have his own face plastered on posters and hung up on another wistful college kidβs wall. But your absolute favorite thing was his bedsheets, so old but shameless, decorated in Spider-man comics. No one else knew Tom Holland like you did, but that was okay. You preferred it like that.
A Walk To Remember AU - Fuckboy!Tom Holland x Reader
What happens when a fuckboy with some anger issues and a bad streak is forced to work alongside someone whoβs his opposite? And what happens if they can be ripped from him in seconds?
A/N: I donβt know Tom personally nor I own him. Whatβs written is just fiction and should be thought of as such. Iβm essentially using him as a nameclaim and faceclaim. Iβm creating a character and just using his name and features for details. I do not directly associate Tom with any ideas used in my writing. Itβs used for entertainment and fictional purposes only. I do not directly associate the actions, activities, or emotions with Tom himself. He is being used here as a character should be thought of such.
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PrologueΒ π Chapter 1Β (choices)Β π Chapter 2 (deadbeat neighbor)Β π Chapter 3 (smug smirks)Β π Chapter 4 (deal or no deal) Chapter 5 (bagels)Β π Chapter 6 (untold stories)Β π Chapter 7 (two sides of the same coin)Β πΒ Chapter 8 (fire and ice)Β π Chapter 9 (stitches)Β π Chapter 10 (parachute)Β π Chapter 11 (innocence)Β π Chapter 12 (who needs rules?)Β π Chapter 13 (winter in july)Β π Chapter 14 (family)Β π Chapter 15 (love me)Β βπ Chapter 16 (nightmares)Β βπ Chapter 17 (sad truths)Β π Chapter 18 (magnetic puzzle)Β π Chapter 19 (not a bucket list, bucket list)Β βπ Chapter 20 (london lights)Β π Chapter 21 (shopping and balancing)Β π Chapter 22 (lost hope)Β π Chapter 23 (numb)Β π Chapter 24 (no more waiting) EpilogueΒ π
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The best part of the year was definitely October, all because it was Halloween. A lot of people think that itβs time for Christmas, but for you itβs definitely Halloween. You were known for the best Halloween costumes since you were little. This year you wanted to look sexy for someone special. Tom Holland was your best friend but lately you two were having a little friendship more than a normal friendship. Every time there was alcohol involved, you two would sneak off somewhere to be alone and steal kisses from each other; but never when you two were sober. Never had you done anything more than kissing in the dark and never had you two kissed when you were sober. You really wanted to be more with Tom, but you were too scared to tell him. All because you didnβt want to lose your best friend. If he didnβt feel anything for you why would he sneak off and steal kisses from you.
βy/n!β You hear his voice call for you. βWhat are you thinking?β His laugh makes you feel warm inside.
βOhβ¦ nothing.β You mumble to him and turn to look at his beautiful face.
βDonβt lie to me. Is it Halloween again?β
βYeahβ¦ yeah Halloween, thinking about my costume for the party you and Haz are throwing.β Itβs not a lie you were thinking about it before you got lost into your thoughts on how you wanted Tom to be more than a friend and drunk kissing buddy. Β
βWhat are you going to wear?β
βOh, no, no, no Iβm not telling you that. Itβs a surprise.β You give him a sweet smile and turn back to the tv.
βCome on! Tell me, Iβm your best friend! Maybe we could even match!β
βNope.β
βIf I tell you mine, will you tell me what you are going to be?β He really tried but you werenβt giving in.
βNo, Tom. Iβm not going to tell you.β
βPretty please, y/n.β You just give him smirk and shook your head, no.
You had that conversation with Tom on the 3rd of October. Now being the 26th of October- and the day of the halloween party. Everyone in your friend group was coming along with many other people the boys knew. The party was going to be amazing. and you hoped that Tom would like your costume. Maybe you two could finally have the talk.
You were standing front of you mirror looking at yourself and hoping to god that you would get his attention for more than a night. Makeup done and hair in loose curls, bunny ears on your head and your costume on, you put on a long coat to cover everything up and keep yourself warm outside. One final look in the mirror before you walked out of the door. Luckily Tomβs and Harrisonβs house wasnβt far away from your apartment so you could just walk to the house.
When you arrived to the house the party was full on going. You could hear the music even outside and you could see people dancing through the windows. A smile forming on your lips as you walk inside the house full of people, the house smelled like alcohol and sweaty bodies like every party you had ever been to. You knew the house like the back of your hand, so you just walk to Tomβs room to leave your jacked there. Opening the door you see random girl and boy on Tomβs bed.
βUmm. This room is not for this.β You scare the two apart from each other, and they just nod and leave the room. You laugh, and close the door after them, looking around the room. It was clean for once, Tom was pretty messy. You leave your jacket on his chair and walk out of the room. Looking for any of your friends.
βy/n?β someone is calling for you over the loud music. Slowly turning to the way the voice had come from, you see your best friend Tom dressed up as Spiderman -of course- and his other best friend Harrison dressed up as batman and Tomβs brothers Sam and Harry dressed up as thing one and thing two.
βWowβ¦β Harry is the first one spak efter Harrison calling after you.
βYou look amazing, darling!β Harrison yells over the music to you. You just blush and nod at them. Your eyes meeting Tomβs ocean brown eyes. He looks like he is in shock, his mouth hanging open.
βShut your mouth or you will catch flies.β Sam playfully slaps Tomβs chin so he would close his mouth.
βHey guysβ¦β You give them a shy smile, you knew that your oufit was exposing, but you thought you looked good in it. βIs it too much?β You ask them looking down at your costume.
βWhat are you?β Tom finally speaks up but he doesnβt sound happy.
βWell, iβm a bunny, duh.β You try to joke around by quoting mean girls but Tom doesnβt look like he found your joke funny.
βYou need to cover up.β
βWow, div you canβt say that to her!β Harrison hit back of Tom head.
βOhβ¦ sorryβ¦β You mumble and turn around to leave them, feeling insecure in your halloween costume that you had loved before you left but now you hated how you looked, and all because Tom didnβt like it.
βYou canβt tell her that! She looks amazing!β You could hear how Harrison was talking to Tom but you just wanted to cover up and leave the party. Quickly walking to Tomβs room you close the door after you and garp your jacked. Looking at yourself in Tomβs mirror you could feel how a tear runs down your cheek. You really hoped that Tom would like your outfit as much as you did, you felt so feminine and powerful in it. Wiping the tear from your face and putting on your jacket you left Tomβs bedroom but you ran into a strong chest.
βUmβ¦ Iβm sorryβ¦β You mumble to whoever you run into and try to get past them, but you feel a strong hand on your upper arm and you turn to face him.
βy/n where are you going?β Tom asks you and you could feel the lump growing in back of your throat.
βH-home.β you whisper to him. Loud music in your ears and lump in your throat you really wanted to leave. Anxiety picking up and you really just wanted to run away from him.
βIβm sorry, I didnβt have the right to tell you to cover up, no one has.β Tom tied to apologize but you were already having a anxiety attack, tears running down your face and you really didnβt want him to see you like this.
βItβs okayβ¦ I-I have to leave.β You tell him and pull your arm free from his hand.
βPlease y/n talk to me.β You just turn around and try to walk away but he stops you again, grabbing your waist and bringing you against his chest again. βShhβ¦ itβs okay.β You didnβt even realize that you were full on crying against him, tears running down your cheeks and sobbs falling out of your mouth. Tom leads you back to his room and locks the door after you two. He sits down on his bed and pulls you into his lap.
βI-Iβm s-sorry.β You try to tell him between your sobs.
βWhy are you sorry? Iβm the asshole here.β He places a gentle kiss on your forehead.
βI-I donβt know.β You try to pull away from him but he just pulls you back to his chest.
βShhβ¦ try to breath. In and out, in and out.β he was drawing circles on your back. βIβm here with you, love. Everything is alright.β Tom tried his best to calm you down but his words make you cry harder. You push him away from you, feeling way too hot so close to him, and feeling like you were in a small box.
βLet go.β you get up from his lap and walk to the window, sweating like crazy. Trying to fan yourself but not helping, but you donβt want to take the coat off. Still crying like crazy, trying to catch your breath.
βy/n take it off, you are going to faint.β Tom tried to encourage you to take your coat off.
βStop itβ¦β you yell at him through your sobs.
βLove, please.β Tom walks closer to you trying to touch you but you just take a step back.
βStop.β
βIβm sorry, I didnβt mean what I told you, love, please take that damn coat off.β
βYou think I donβt look good.β You whisper and turn your back to him.
βYou look fucking amazing. Thatβs why I asked you to cover up. I didnβt want anyone else to see you like that.β You have to stop breathing for a second so your heavy breathing and sobbs wouldnβt cover his voice.
βWhat?β You mumble and turn to face him, letting your breath free.
βI didnβt want to anyone see you like that, because I was jealous.β
βWhy would you be jealous?β He takes a step closer to you.
βBecause I want you to be mine.β He is so close to you and you can feel his breath on your face. His hands find your coat and he takes it off and letβs it fall to the floor. βYou look so fucking amazing, I canβt believe how beautiful you are y/n.β he places his hand on your cheek. βIβm sorry.β he wipes your cheek from the tears, you werenβt sobbing anymore or crying as hard as before.
βY-you want what?β You didnβt believe your ears, was he really telling you that he wanted to be with you.
βIβm falling in love with you.β
βReally?β You sob out again, you couldnβt believe him, he had to be lying to you.
βIβm so sorry for hurting you, I was just a jealous asshole who wants you all to myself. I hope you can forgive me.β
βI-I forgive you, Tommy.β
βCan I kiss you now?β He leans a little closer to you.
βDid you drink?β
βNope, just drunk on you.β you let out a small giggle and lean in for the kiss.
βCan I now show off your sexy ass to the world?β Tom jokes and you just nod.
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The hardest thing in life is to let someone go and after that realize how much the person really meant to you. Tom always knew that he loved y/n, a lot in fact. But he never knew that he felt something more for her than a friendly love. First it felt like they were just fighting and they would make it up soon like they always did. Their fights never lasted for long.Β
After a month he missed her like crazy but wanted to give her the space she needed, or what he thought that she needed. He was dating Violet, she was amazing and he felt happy but something was still missing from his life. Y/n used to be in his life everyday. They maybe didnβt see each other everyday but they always texted each other or sent silly snaps to one another. They didnβt always have to talk daily but they both knew that they were there for each other until Tom started dating Violet.Β
Thatβs when it all went wrong. First it was a small lie of him dating someone new but he knew about y/n feelings for him and he didnβt want to hurt her when he didnβt even know if the relationship was going to last, but when he hadnβt told her after a month of dating he knew he had fucked up and the face you had when you saw him and her. It killed him. He was so sure that you two would make it, you always did.Β
But when he saw you at the grocery store he knew he had fucked up even more than he thought because when he called after you, you just waved to him and gave the most fakest smile he had ever seen on your face and then you just turned around and left, not even looking over your shoulder when you did. It felt like someone had stabbed him and thatβs when he realized how much he must have hurt you.Β
Days after he had seen you he tried to text you but he found out that she had blocked his number. βFuck!β He loudly sighed.Β
βWhatβs wrong?β Harrison walked into Toms room. He looked like mess his brown curls were a mop on top of his head, he had dark circle under his eyes and he looked really tired.Β
βShe blocked me.β Tomβs sad eyes met Harrisonβs.Β
βViolet?β
βNo, Y/n.β He told his best friend. βHave you talked to her? At all?β He sounded desperate.
βI have sent her a couple text but never heard back from her.β You hadnβt answered any of the messages from Harrison, Harry, or Sam they had sent you and you had blocked Tom so you wouldnβt break down and text him first.Β
βCan I call her on your phone?βΒ
βWhat, are you crazy?β Harrison didnβt sound happy.Β
βI need to talk to her. I miss her like crazy.β Tom sighed and looked down at his hands. He missed you so much and after seeing you he missed you even more because he knew then that he had lost you for the good. βShe doesnβt want to talk to you or any of us anymore. Itβs been a month why now?β Harrison paused. βJust go see Violet you havenβt seen her in days and she even texted me that you werenβt answering her.β βI saw her.β βWell of course you saw her, she is your girlfriend.β Harrison let out a sarcastic laugh. βNo, I mean I saw Y/n.β Tom swallowed the lump growing in his throat. βWhen we were at the grocery store the other day.β He could feel the tears forming in his eyes. βWhy didnβt you tell me? How was she? Did you talk to her?β Harrison was asking so many questions that Tom didnβt even know how to tell him how sad and broken you looked. βTom?β Harrison called out his name. βI called out for her and she just gave me a small wave and the fakest smile and walked away.β He whispered and got up from his bed. The same bed where two months ago you two cuddled up to each other and watched movies together and fell asleep in each otherβs arms. βAre you falling asleep on me?β Tomβs laugh woke you up. βWhat? Itβs not my fault that you are so comfortable.β Tomsβ hands were wrapped around your body and your head was on his shoulder. βYou are more comfortable than my pillow.β You mumble against his neck. βIs that so, darling?β He asked and kissed your forehead. βYou wanna sleep or are we watching this movieβ¦. that you picked out?β βWhat?! I know you love the Notebook. Donβt even try!β You playfully hit his hard chest. βShhhβ¦ someone is going to hear you.β You just laugh at his dumb joke and try to stay awake. βY/nβ¦β Tom whispers your name after a while. βYou are so cute.β Tom smiles to himself and hugs you a little tighter and places a small kiss on your forehead again. Slowly his eyes felt heavy too and he fell asleep too.Β
βI think that Iβm in love with her.β Tom lets out a small whisper. βWith who, Violet?β Harrison asked. βNo. With Y/n.β βAre you fucking kidding me Tom?!?β Harrison raised his voice at Tom. Harrison was usually the calm one but now he was mad at his best friend. βShe has been in love with you for so fucking long and now that she is gone you want her! You are a fucking asshole Tom!β βI know that! But I didnβt realize it before but now that I donβt have her I realized that I love her, more than anything. I canβt live without her.β Tom felt tears running down his face. He never knew what he had before he lost it. βThen fight for her.β Harrison was right. He needed to fight for her and show her that he loved her and he didnβt want to lose her ever again. βY-yeah I will do that!β Tom turned to look at his best friend before running out of the door. βWhere are you going?!β Harrison yelled after him. βTo see her!β Tom couldnβt let this go any further, he needed to see you. Hug you, feel you in his arms again, smell your hair and even maybe kiss you for real. He took his car to your apartment building. He runs up the stair too impassioned to wait for the elevator. He stopped at your front door to catch his breath before he knocked at the wooden door.Β
βCan you get the door?β Tom hears you call out from the other side of the door. The door opens and Tom is met with a handsome guy. He is a tall, curly haired ginger and he looks like he just woke up.Β
βMm, hey?β The man speaks.Β
βI-is Y/n home?β Tomsβ voice breaks a little. Who was this guy?
βThere is some guy to see you babe!β The giant called out. βWhat do you mean babe?β Tom mumbles under his breath. βWhat?β The guy asked Tom. βOh, nothingβ¦β Tom looked behind the guy and saw you walking to the door. You looked beautiful, messy hair, no makeup, fluffy socks and wearing a big hoodie that was probably this guys. βWho is it?β Tom could hear your voice, like you had just woken up. Oh, how he missed you. The guy comes out of the way and your eyes meet Tomβs chocolate brown ones. βTom?β βHey, darling.β He used the nickname he would always use on you. Before he met you he would call almost every girl darling but after meeting you, you were the only darling in his life or if he had a girlfriend he would call them that too but it was mainly your nickname. βWhat are you doing here?β You barely got the words out. Β After seeing him in the shop you had tried your best to not to think about him because he had looked so happy with his new girlfriend, who he didnβt tell you about. βI wanted to talk to youβ¦β he lets out a sigh and looks at the guy, who got what he is silently asking. βMmβ¦ I will go back to bed.β He let you know and walked back to your bedroom and closet the door after himself. βY-you blocked my number and I really needed to talk to you.β He continued. βDid something happen?β Your voice was weak and you wrapped your arms around your body like you were trying to protect from something or someone. βNo, no. I mean yes. Something happened to usβ¦β βAre you talking about the lying and how you made all of my closest friends lie to me for you?β Your voice was ice cold like you didnβt hold any emotion but really you were dying inside. Who was he to show up after a month to talk? What had taken him so long? Better, why was he here at all?
βNo I-I meantβ¦ I-Iβm so sorry.β Tom choked out.
βI donβt really have time for this.β You sigh. βThatβs why I blocked you.β You tell him and try to close the door but Tom stops you. βPlease listen to me.β Tom begs you. βIβm really sorry, I am! Please believe me.β Did you want to hear him out? Yes. But did he hurt you too much to care about his stupid apology? Also yes.
βTom just leave me alone, Iβm done with this.β You point back and forth between you and Tom. βdone with us.β You whisper.
βPlease, darling, Y/n.β
βDonβt call me that!β Your voice was a lot louder than you wanted it to come out.
βIβm sorry.β
βHey whatβs going on?β You hear someone talk behind you.
βItβs nothing Oscar.β You turn around to face him. βTom here was just about to leave.β You give him a fake smile, but Tom sees right through it.
βOkay.β He turns around but turns again. βIsnβt he Spiderboy?β βSpiderman.β You and Tom say at the same time.
βYeahβ¦ whatever.β Oscar laughs and goes back to your bedroom.
βWho is he?β Tom asks you. βWhy do you care, can you just leave?β You didnβt want him to leave, you wanted to wrap your hands around him and hug him as hard as you could, never let him go again. To smell him again, that sweet smell that you use to smell almost every single day and when he was away you would βstealβ his hoodies so you could feel close to him.
βHey, have you seen my green hoodie?β Tom asks you, you two were talking on the phone because tom was out of the country to film a movie. βI swear that I packed it with me.β You look at yourself in the mirror and let out a small giggle. βy/n?β
βWell, I may have taken it from your suitcase before you left.β You put your hand on your mouth to keep the giggles inside.
βY/n!β He laughs at you.
βIβm sorry! But you wore it before you left! And it smelled like you!β You giggle out again. βIβm sorry, I should have told you.β
βNo, no itβs okay. I will just smell like you and I can wear it when i miss you.β You smile at yourself like a crazy person.
βOkay, I will give it back to you if you promise to let me borrow it again.β
βDeal, darling. Itβs a deal.β
βBecause you are my best friend.β Tomβs voice is weak like he was about to cry, you knew that voice. βI fucked up, really bad. I know, I understand if you will never forgive me. But please just listen to me, two minutes.β
βTom.β You call out his name, not sure what to do. Fight back or listen to him.
βPlease, I promise I will leave you alone after that if thatβs what you want. You were about to say something but he cut you off βplease.β
βOkay.β You whisper. βbut not here.β You let him know, you take your keys and walk out of your apartment closing the door after you. βCome on.β You donβt even look at him.
βThank you.β Tom walks after you, out of the building into the park next to your apartment building.
βI donβt get why we never come here? itβs so quiet and calm, almost no people.β Tom laughs and wraps his hand around your waist. βI know right, itβs so nice. I donβt get why people donβt come here.β
βWe should come here with Tessa, she would love it here!β Tom sounded so excited, you were sure that he loved that dog more than anything else in this world.
βShe would love it.β You tell him and stop at a big oak tree. βLetβs sit here.β Tom sits down and you lay next to him, laying your head on his legs.
βIβm so lucky to have you in my life.β Tom leans down and kisses your cheek. βIβm the lucky one.β You giggle and turn to face him. βI love you so much.β Oh, how you wished he knew how much you actually loved him.
βI love you too darling.β
βHere.β Tom takes your arms and pulls you to the same oak tree. You two sit down and you donβt dare to look at him. Thatβs when you realize that you are still letting him hold your hand so you quickly pull your hand away from him.
βSoβ¦β You turn to look at your hands and play with your fingers.
βCan you look at me?β
βYeah, sure.β You mumble and turn to look at him but not letting your eyes meet his coffee brown ones.
βInto my eyes, please?β You slowly let your eyes meet his and you let your eyes stay there, for the first time that day.
βLook, I know that I fucked up really bad, so bad that I know why you donβt want to talk to me anymore.β He sighs and takes your hands into his. βThe biggest mistake I have ever made was that I didnβt tell you about Violet and I didnβt tell you because I didnβt want to hurt you but I ended up hurting you even more.β You could feel the tears forming in your eyes and the lump in your throat.
βAnd the second biggest mistake was not coming after you that night, or not once that month.β You couldnβt fight it anymore and you let the tears run down your face freely. βBut when I saw you at the store, it broke my heart to know that it was over and thatβs when I actually realized what a mistake I had made.β
βI saw how happy you were and Iβm happy for you.β You sob out and let go of his hands so you could rub your eyes.
βI was happyβ¦ But after seeing you I realized somethingβ¦β
βWhat?β You sob out again. Tom takes your hands away from your eyes and makes you look at him again. Even now red eyes and red face, tears running down your face you were one of the most beautiful women Tom had seen in his life.
βThat I have this feeling, that I donβt feel with anyone else but with you.β
βWhat are you talking about?!?β You let out a small laugh full of sarcasm.
βThat I love you.β
βI know that you love me.β
βNo, you donβt get it. I love you more than a friend.β
βI know, you love me like a sister.β
βNo, I donβt love you like a sister nor a friend. I love you more than a friend or a sister. Iβm in love with you Y/n.β You donβt know how to react to his words. βY/n.β he called out your name after a while.
βNo, Tom, no!β You got up from the ground. βYou canβt do this!β You laugh and start to walk away.
βY/n, wait!β Tom yells after you.
βNo! Tom! Leave me the fuck alone!β You yell at him before running away from the love of your life who just told you that he was in love with you too. How can he play with your feelings like this? And did this mean he knew that you were in love with him, no, that you are still in love with him?
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i would give my left nut to have this happen
That would be a great birthday present (my birthday is June 10th)
Because I am tired of seeing βReblog if.β
This is Peter, if you see Peter he will protect you from the following;
- Reblog or your mom dies
- Reblog or a spider will be in your bed (unless that spider is Spider-Man because who wouldnβt want that)
- Reblog or bad luck
- LITERALLY ANYTHING NEGATIVE IF YOU SEE HIM YOU HAVE FULL IMMUNITY
- Also since heβs VERY PROTECTIVE the whole βno immunityβ stuff doesnβt work. He has your back. So congrats ππΎπ yayayaya for being safe.
Iβm so mad because this worked
help me roger
Reblogging myself because⦠what was that? Five minutes?
O_O
β¦β¦β¦my friend has made me curious
help me roger
Update: after I reblogged this someone messaged me offering me tickets to the sold out Hausu screening with a Q&A and autograph session with the director
These never work for me, but hereβs to trying.
Eh Roger is cute I might as well
That fish is so happy it makes me happy.
