a short letter to people who are struggling right now
you didn’t see that coming, did you? you walked on that bright, red carpet that you created - thinking that everything’s finally light and well, but when you tripped over one of your fantasies and looked up, suddenly you are in an unfamiliar place. a place so dark and unfamiliar that it terrifies you. you search for a way out: a stair or a door or a window but all you see is darkness. and dark keeps pulling your hand. you scream and scream but nobody hears you. nobody. so dark drags you down deeper into its arms. you didn’t expect that at all, did you? here you thought you were doing well, since you’ve already went through that phase. countless times. you’ve gotten out of all that suffocating water countless times. you’ve already turned all that wound and scars to poetry and are now marching towards greatness. lightness. but you didn’t expect that, did you? you, a young warrior who have won hard battles. you, who have been through so much that the trees bow down at your presence. where’s this young warrior in you now? this brave, courageous legend?
darling, no matter how cliché this might sound, let me tell you this: you will be okay, one day. because this is how we are: we never stop trying. after wandering on that pit for god-knows-how-long, one day you’ll just wake up and say, “ah, i’m done with you. i’ve come to peace with you. thank you. it was nice meeting you. it’s time for me to leave.” and then you’ll leave and strive, yet again, to this person that you want to be. so for now, feel it. let your hand be dragged. let yourself feel. allow yourself to be depressed or angry. you’ve got to let yourself feel all that dark and vulnerability. because you become stronger that way. because that’s how you learn. because what’s a good heart if it hasn’t been broken or bruised or tossed around a few times or shaken? my point is, don’t resist that pit that is closing in on you that people justify as dark. don’t be afraid of it. hemingway said something like, “face death in the face. face it squarely and fairly,” and that’s it! it doesn’t matter if nietzsche said that our existence is meaningless or if we know that this is all pointless - no benefit or whatsoever because there are lots of wonderful things in this lil’ pumpkin! but i’m getting further from my point. anyway - you are great. this world needs more people like you. you’ll get through this!! just remember that there’ll always be people who will stay outside that pit, waiting for you to get out - all smiles with warm bread, tea and blanket in their arms.
