Escapist

After Thursday's seizure I've been struggling a lot with missing time and trying to remember day to day things. But for some reason I still know my go to helldiver stratagems lol. Couldn't tell you when my birthday is but damn sure I can call in an orbital strike 😎😎

So far quite a few compliments on my new glasses and the new earrings I made which really makes working with the smallest jump rings and chain in existence almost worth it

#almost

Is it fate that I got invited to a winyl (wine and vinyl) 2 weeks after deciding to expand the few records I owned into a more proper collection?

30 is such an arbitrary number.

I had myself convinced that today is a day I would never see. I've been dreading it the last couple of months because I thought it would be so depressing to reach this age and still have nothing to show for it.

But I was wrong.

30 arrived with no dramatic flair, no sadness for the years I've lost and no emptiness calling out my name.

30 has settled in gently with a warm reminder that I have built a worthwhile life for myself.

I'm glad I made it to this day I thought would never come.

Barely making it through this season but I'm still here. Still cute.

Trust me when I say there is no better way to staycation than with a big jetted tub 🖤

Had to go get fingerprinted for security reasons at work which means I had to actually leave the house AND look presentable so here's a selfie 🤮🤮🤮

I hate November. Good riddance you spooky-vibe-lacking, no-holiday-cheer-having-ass month. Every single November is an affront to God and when the rapture finally comes it will be because of humanity's continual participation in the month of November.

Genuinely, from the deepest pits of my soul, go to fucking hell November. And when you get there you better be ready to square up because I'm coming for you.

"I'm spiraling" I tell you.

I feel completely empty. The anxiety is overwhelming so I try to fill every waking moment with... something. But there is a wall between me and everything productive and I fall back to self destructive habits instead. There's a familiar taste in my mouth.

I'm desperate to end this cycle and even though I can see the exit, with its bright neon sign, I can't seem to find my way out. 

"It's like I'm caught in this terrible loop that's too painful to keep going but without the pain I don't feel anything. I don't know what to do without my racing heart and the lump in my throat." 

Tears are running down my cheeks but those sobs that once wracked my body never come.

"It's not a loop, it's a spiral."

You mean it mostly as a joke. You're trying to make me smile, maybe even laugh. And it works. But the context and depth of your words are not lost on me and the deafening silence of the void inside me begins to quiet just a bit.

Really thought I was going to get my tube taken out today but instead I'm being scheduled for surgery lol

He is so babygirl

If you want to let people know you're a furry you can just say you like Beastars. You do not ever, and I do mean EVER, need to say out loud that you watch Zootopia porn. Thanks for your consideration.

Can you still be hot with a visible medical device? The science says yes~

Told my husband some random girl walking by in street fighter had a nice ass and he turned around and KO'd her 😂😂 y'all pray for poor lvl 14 Lisa cuz she didn't deserve that 💀