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I don’t care if you’re a Shawol, or not. Anyone involved in the kpop fandom should send positive thoughts to Jonghyun’s family, friends, and the remaining members of SHINee.

We lost a legend, today.

Today is not the day for fan wars. We should come together as a community and forever cherish the talent and happiness that Jonghyun had brought to us.

You did well, Jonghyun.

I’ve been thinking…

I’m pretty sure no one’s gonna see this post. It will get lost in tons of other posts that is about shinee, or jonghyun, but I just wanted to write my feelings down. My intentions are not someone to see this anyways.

I’ve been thinking…

From the first moment I’ve heard about his death to now. I was SO shocked. Nothing, literally NOTHING has ever got me THIS MUCH shocked since the first day I became a part of the kpop fandom. I was so… surprised. It was so, so, SO unexpected. I couldn’t believe in my eyes. I couldn’t believe any of those titles that says he actually committed suicide. I still can’t… it feels like a bad, bad nightmare. I literally couldn’t know what to do or what so say. I went on twitter and saw that everyone has the same reaction as me, some were crying, some were screaming, some were mourning in silence, some were in denial, some were just accepting the truth and remained silent.

And the thing is, I wasn’t a big fan of him.

Yes, I only knew one of his songs. And for shinee, I only knew like 3-4 of their songs. I knew all of their names, and saw bunch of videos or interviews about them, but that was it. I knew, know, that they’re one of the biggest kpop groups ever. They were so special, so big, so loved, so famous. I was seeing them on social media everytime.

But his death, hit me so hard. It still hits me, up to this moment where I’m writing this down. I feel… empty. I feel speechless. I feel lost. You guys, it effected me so bad. Just like how it did to every other shawol.

But I’m not a shawol?

So I couldn’t understand why.

Why?

Why I was mourning this much for a man that I barely knew about. Why I was feeling like my life had been changed?

I thought the answer was just the fact that someone so kind, so talented, and so good decided to end their life, and left everyone behind. It’s a sad thing, right? It doesn’t matter which fandom you belong, it’s sad, devastating for everyone. A legend, leaving us like this, it made everyone so, so upset.

But I knew it was more than that. There was something else I couldn’t put my finger on.

And when I read the letter he wrote, my heart ached more and more.

But I couldn’t understand why. I was trying to name this feeling but I couldn’t.

So I was thinking about it. I tried to figure this feeling out. I kept looking at the posts and tweets about him and thought about everything all day.

And 5 minutes ago, I suddenly figured out why. The answer hit me like a truck.

I saw myself in him.

He seemed so happy. All the time. Whenever I saw him in a video, or in a photo, or on the stage.

He was smiling.

He was friends with a lot of people.

He saved maybe one, maybe hundreds of lives, with his voice and with his lyrics.

He was an inspiration for a lot of idols, for a lot of people, for a lot of fans.

He gained a lot of love with his sense of humour, with his personality, with his charisma. Right, god, he was so fucking handsome.

He was an amazing, talented singer and a composer.

He was an amazing idol, son, brother, friend, person.

He was always so energetic, he was making everyone around him laugh.

He was making everyone around him happy.

He was so normal.

He was so cheerful.

He was so full of life.

Everyone thought that, right? Everyone thought he was happy. Yes, he was going through some difficulties, but who didn’t, everyone said to themselves. Even he said this to himself. Everyone thought that it’s not that important. Maybe some didn’t even realise that he was faking everything. At the end, no one didn’t really take it serious, right?

Well, because he had everything.

We thought he had everything.

And he had.

Almost had.

Except the real genuineness.

He was forced to laugh.

He was forced to smile.

By himself. By people. By society. By the rules.

I fucking see myself in him.

I keep laughing, smiling, everyday.

I keep talking, making jokes everyday.

I keep acting normal, like nothing is happening inside me. Inside my head. I try to hide it, I don’t want to talk about it, I don’t want to show it.

I feel like I should do these.

Because I feel like I don’t have any right to feel like this.

I just smile to everyone, every damn time. Because I feel like I have to. I feel like I owe something to everyone, except myself.

I tell myself that I should stop exaggerating what I feel inside. I tell myself that some have more important problems. I tell myself that everyone feels a little depressive. There’s nothing special about what I feel. There’s nothing special about me.

I force myself to think about it like that everyday.

And it just hurts more.

And more.

And more.

I feel like I have the worlds biggest problems. But at the same time, I know that I don’t.

So I just lock the feelings inside my head. Yes, I keep doing that.

For the past few weeks, nothing makes me happy. I wake up every morning just for the night to come so I can sleep again. Time is just passing and passing and passing but I do nothing. Things that used to make my day doesn’t entertain me anymore. Nothing makes me feel alive. I can’t focus on anything. I don’t want to celebrate anything. I’m so bored; of doing the same things over again, of thinking about the same things over again. I don’t want to do anything. My smile keeps getting more and more fake each day. I don’t feel genuine. I don’t feel real. Well, in fact, I’ve never felt real… And as I keep locking the feelings up to my head, as I keep acting like nothing is happening, as I keep smiling even if I don’t feel happy deep down, the burden on my shoulders is getting heavier. And I can’t do anything about it.

And I feel so ugly. Everytime I look in the damn mirror I feel disgusting. I stopped eating. I know it’s unhealthy, I’m sick of everyone keep telling me that, keep telling me the things I know. But I don’t want to eat anything. I don’t want to think about eating. But at the same time, I can’t stop myself from thinking about eating. And I can’t do anything about it.

I lost my trust in people, in my friends. I lost my interest in them. I feel like everyone’s lying. It’s like everyone’s slowly withdrawing. I used to love being with friends, talking with friends, doing fun things with friends, hanging out with friends. Now I don’t want to see anyone. Any person being. Because being with people means acting all bubbly and happy all the time, although I never feel bubbly and happy inside.

Everything is just sucks. I’m suck at everything. I can’t do anything right. Sometimes people taunt me about it. About my stupidity. And I can’t do anything about it.

And you know what the worst thing is? You know what other people will say if you open up to them.

They won’t understand it. They will underestimate your problems. They will say that some people have bigger issues. They will say that you’re too young and inexperienced to hate the world. They will say that the sadness you feel is not that important, that everyone feels the same emptiness time to time, that it will just go away somehow. They won’t care about it. They will forget what you said to them 5 minutes later.

But I don’t blame anyone for this. This is what humankind is. We only care about ourselves. Our problems. Our pain. We don’t pay attention to the surroundings, then realise the value of something when we lost it. When it’s too late.

I lost the brightness inside me. I used to have a light inside me. But now, it’s just darkness. And I can’t do anything about it.

And there’s something I can’t decide:

I want someone to realise it. But they don’t. Is it because I’m too good at not showing the real me or they just don’t care enough?

But at the same time, I don’t want anyone to know how much pain I’m in. I don’t want anyone to ruin the darkness I have in me. I want to remain unhappy. I don’t know why, it’s weird, who wouldn’t want to be happy, right? Everything hurts, but I like the way it is. Cause I believe there’s nothing to feel happy about in this earth anymore. Don’t try to pull that “life is a special gift” shit on me because it’s not. Small things, hobies, people, dreams, they do makes us happy but that’s just an illusion. Mankind is so disgusting, selfish, stupid and ugly. Man, I can keep talking about how fucked up this world and society is but this passage is not about this.

Anyways, maybe I’m just tired of trying to be happy. I just let it be. Or maybe I don’t want to hear the things everyone seems to learn by heart in these days; some encouraging, supportive shit, then they will keep focusing on their own life and problems.

Don’t get me wrong. People around me are the nicest. I have the best family, the best friends.

But kim jonghyun had those too, right?

Unfortunately, it wasn’t enough for him.

I can understand him better now. He left millions of broken hearts behind, but he won’t be in pain anymore.

I kind of envy that.

You made me realise my situation better than ever kim jonghyun.

You felt like no one understands you.

I feel like no one understands me.

You felt so alone although you were surrounded by lot of people.

I feel so alone although I’m surrounded by a lot of people.

You missed the happy days. Happy memories.

I miss the happy days. Happy memories.

You tried to understand yourself but you couldn’t.

I try to understand myself but I can’t.

You felt like drowning.

I feel like drowning.

You tried to fight with the dark thoughts till the end, but they’ve won the match.

I’m still here trying to fight with them. I don’t know how to win either. I’m about to give up. I don’t know what to do. I just want some peace. I want to relax.

You felt like no one understands you.

But I understand you jonghyun, I understand you so damn well and it hurts.

The world is in pain because of the thing you did, but you wanted to do something for yourself just for once, didn’t you?

I understand you.

Living with this pain, with this darkness for years must be so terrible.

I don’t care about what other people say about you because you decided to end your life, because you chose the easiest way to escape.

I know it wasn’t easy.

You’re strong.

You were so strong, kim jonghyun.

I hope you’re somewhere happier now. Somewhere that has the peace you have been seeking for.

I’m not a religious person. But if there’s an afterlife, or heaven, or something, anything like that, and if you’re seeing these;

Please know that I understand you. Someone understands you.

We understand you.

You’ve always been such an angel, but now, you became an actual angel. Farewell, kim jonghyun. Rest in peace.

This cruel world didn’t deserve such a good person like you anyways…

Rest in peace

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Was I the only one who read that as noot noot?

This is based off on something I saw and wanted to try myself

I was not disappointed

I'm wheezing this is gold 😂😂

me when i get my student loan

this is the money cat. reblog in 30 seconds and you will find yourself with more wealth

#this is the only money cat i will reblog because it’s actually doing the manekineko pose151,646 notes (via lolwhutninja)

OMG YOU’RE RIGHT

and it has its right paw up! the correct paw for this. and from the markings on its ears, it looks like it might be a calico cat. which is the luckiest kind!

extremely lucky cat

I don’t even care if it actually works, I’m mostly reblogging because it’s freaking adorable.

cute cat and need money, good post, 10/10

in case anyones interested in the other versions

http://www.namaii.com/manekineko/maneki-neko-types.html

Y’know I reblogged this a bit ago and was saved from financial probation and getting kicked out of school because of it, just mere months from graduation. Got a call from the financial aid advisor telling me that they made a mistake with filing my account (or some other sort of clerical error) and said that, basically, they owe me money. Welp.

This is freaking adorable.

kim seokjin.

i’m so tired of people who accepts seokjin only as bangtan’s visual. y’all better realize that jin can sing different genres of music, he can dance really well, he can write lyrics and compose and produce songs. jin can act and he even has a degree in this field. he is a good performer, he even knows how to play with audience, our hearts and musical instruments. jin looks after the rest of the members, he cares about them and cheer them up. he is truly beautiful inside and out and he is really talented man. i just want people to know this fact: kim seokjin is more than jast a face of the group, he is an artist.

REBLOG THIS. JIN NEEDS MORE APPRECIATION

This.

anyways, kim seokjin exists and is a vital member of bangtan so jot that the fuck down,,

Stan talent. Stan Kim seokjin.

This is your daily reminder to love and appreciate Kim Seokjin of BTS

Please.

Asking us Jin stans to shut up? nope. not until Jin gets what he deserves.

Preach it louder for the antis in the back

A great concept

Jin getting more lines and screen time in every up coming comeback. Jin being treated the same amongst fans. Jin getting the attention and the recognition he deserves. Jin being treated the same amongst BigHit → having the same opportunities as other members (e.g. Jungkook being able to celebrate his graduation while Jin wasn’t able to do this) Jin being able to actually do what he studied - acting, and NOT being pushed to the side to play a flower, banana and clock with NO lines AGAIN.

Oh wow would you look at that 👀👀