radio silence

when i was 15 i was in this summer camp thing (???) in the us and there was this french kid who i kinda liked? idk im not really sure but i do know he was the only one of the guys that i REALLY wanted to hug when the camp ended so 🤷 but like yeah we are fb friends and there was a group chat but it kinda slowly died and we havent been in touch since BUT i had a dream about him (???) some time ago and then he appeared on my front page on facebook today and very coincidentally had a birthday like a few days ago but anyway the point is imagine if i had the guts to contact him again lmao

i feel like i’m practically sizzling with the energy to say fuck it and just leave 😮‍💨

the way i cried my eyes out when i heard you’re gonna go far live 💔

look im gonna throw hands with literally everyone that comes my way tomorrow if i dont get tickets for noah kahan’s show in glasgow

this is the year i rekindle old friendships 🥹

no its the fact that he said it’s better if we’re just friends and the fact i let out the most relieved breath at that and the fact that just earlier this week i thought about how i need someone to break my heart in the worst way possible just so i’d know i am capable of feeling at least something and the fact that he didn’t break my heart at all because there was nothing to break and the fact that yes, i felt relieved but mostly i just didn’t feel anything at all

what brings europeans together is not in fact eurovision but the hatred towards the jury votes

also the fact that i haven’t seen a single swedish person here on tumblr 💀