❛❛ ONCE MORE TO SEE YOU ❜❜ - pt 1
꒰꒰ ✎ :: Kabukimono/ Kunikuzushi/ Scaramouche/ Wanderer x gn reader
꒰꒰ ✎ Genre: angst with a happy ending in 3rd post, im not strong enough for a full angsty one😭
꒰꒰ ✎ Summary: After losing you, Kuni decides to change his and your unfair destiny himself. In orther for that, he goes to the Irminsul, just like in the archon quest, attempting to change its archives about his life in his favour so that he could keep you safe. Thus he restarts his life, while fully remembering everything from the previous one, but it seems the cycle has to repeat itself
⚠︎ Warnings: contains spoilers for scara's story, mentions of death (it's angst tho), of violence, cursing, kinda long too
Part 1 ࿐୨୧࿐ Part 2 ࿐୨୧࿐ Part 3
Once again, the Kabukimono finds himself alone in the darkness, not sensing anything, not even the way his heart keeps beating, which is an absurd thing to a mere puppet as himself. The same virtual heart starts now to beat faster after seeing a glimpse of you, the only source of light in such a cold place.
Reaching his hand for you to take isn't enough, so he has to move, faster, run towards you until your form gets blurry and his hopes starts to sink, losing all of them in a blink of an eye when Kabukimono figures out his dream.
The same dream he kept having every night ever since he has lost you, the only one who could accept him for who he is and most importantly made him accept his own self. Or at least you had tried. After you left, everything for the boy once destined for a great role as a leader in Inazuma seemed to have lost its meaning. You were the last person to have stayed with him, the one who never planned to betray him and yet, in face of Fate, you had no choice but to die for him. For him to keep living, to find the truth about himself, to enjoy his life. But how can he do that now, when you're not there to share the moments together and keep only plaguing his mind?
Kabukimono asked his unforgiving Fate the same, asked why does it have to be so cruel, why did it all have to be like that and he has yet to receive an aswer.
Rather than digging himself in his tomb of madness and grief after your death, he starts to seek for solutions. The answers aren't going to bring you back anyway. After all, he is not an ordinary human, he is the one the electro archon has crafted with care and tenacity, his origins keep pushing him towards his goal. But if asked what is his aim after all, no explanation could be given other than a simple whisper of your name, a murmur that would go into the air for a divinity to hear and grant him his wish.
In his first life, Kabukimono tried to live his life as best as he could. It was not easy to accept the rejection from the one and only who gave him his entire identity, just to abandon him, as he thinks. Having to endure the loss of Katsuragi and then the ill child from Tatarasuna, the one exactly like him, "a hope for the future, a fledgling barely out of the nest" was already hard enough for him to feel like giving up but then you appeared, miraculously in a way and showed him, through small steps how to bring himself up, how to see the world again for what it is and gain the strength to move on.
Except that your small, but significant intervention was also interfering with the evil's plans. Or as it goes in this story by the name Il Dottore. He had already managed to ensure Kabukimono's association with the Fatui after all the pain he put him through. He couldn't let you mess with his plans.
"It was rather amusing watching you getting close to that puppet. And the lengths you managed to go to earn his trust" Dottore laughs pretentiously in your face, viewing your intentions of getting close tp Kabukimono as ill intented, just as how his are. "Really wished I could still watch you make a fool of yourself like that" he continues drawing his sword.
"Tasteless as always! You fatui, walking all pretentiously thinking you rule the world and yet-" you pause to smirk at your upcoming remarks "you are all a bunch of stalkers, mere pawns who think they did something, but just waisted their life " You bite back at the wretched man. "What a shame" you stop when his blade is pointing right at your throat, feeling its edge grazing your skin, perhaps even bleeding already.
"Little fox still believes to have the upper hand! Face the truth: You lost!" his patience is running low as he doesn't let you respond to him anymore, perhaps his ego having been affected. "Though I should consider: any last words?" Dottore asks with a sickly smirk.
"Eat sh*t, stupid fatui" is what you last manage to swear before he "finishes " his plan.
You were one of Ei's most loyal servants, a fox youkai who watched her go through the best moments in her life before the war broke out 500 years ago and through her worst moments after her twin's and friends' loss. You were there when she crafted "the puppet " and when she decided to let it free, to let it have its purpose, find its own way through life. From time to time you also kept an eye on him, out of curiosity for his destiny, for the way he is going to shape his life, for what freedom did Ei release him.
And naturally you found yourself cross paths with him. It was amusing at first, he thought of you as some sort of blessing he was being gifted since you always managed to help in some of his crises, or keep him company for short periods of time. In your perspective your help didn't seem anything considerable, but Kabukimono was truly moved by your acts of kindness. And truly embarrassed by your constant teasing.
Using your own powers and abilities, you figured out the fatui discovered about Ei's actions, implicitly her creation and you couldn't let them destroy him like that. But it seems that this time, the cards weren't in your favour.
Dottore laughed again satisfied with himself after his plan worked. Kabukimono now joined the Fatui, as the Sixth Harbinger, Scaramouche.
Still, little did the doctor know, the Balladeer only accepted just to gain the means and power for his scheme of "getting you back" to be a success. Changing his fate through the Irminsul was a forbidden act, with no need of a written law to specifically stop him. It was hard enough to simply reach it, never mind attempting to change its archives. But he was willing to try to change your fates, to try to repay you for everything you've done, to give you back the life you deserved.
With the help of traveler and Nahida, curiously enough, he did it. He re-wrote his existence, making sure that he would join the fatui, before meeting his long lost friends and his dear lover so that he won't lose anyone, so that no one would die because of him. It was the perfect plan.
❛❛Promises to keep as far as the eyes can reach
A game of luck that I would choose
A game of light that I would lose❜❜
⁺ ˖˚ Songs from which I quoted the lyrics are: "Promise keeper" by Agnes Obel and the title itself of this work is the name of one MITSKI song, "Once more to see you".
A/N: before anyone wonders "but didn't scara considered his friends' deaths as betrayals and became all cold and grumpy and stuff" YES, that is true, but in here he met READER and eith their help he was better at coping with the losses and understanding his grief