so i came back and said nothing aha ha😎😎
Jokes aside, I haven’t said anything since I returned because I didn’t exactly have anything to say. In complete honesty, from an art perspective, my time away from social media sucked. I’ve drawn practically nothing and I have gone weeks without drawing because I just have no motivation. Maybe this is burnout, I don’t know because I’ve never fully experienced this before until now.
One big thing that I have to say is that I have practically no interest in Transformers at all anymore. I haven’t been as in love with it as I once was for a while even before I went on break, and the break just emphasized that I don’t have the same love for it as I used to.
I used to pressure myself to draw my comics once every one or two days because I was under the belief that it was expected of me. I’d never had a huge following until now, and because I did I was afraid of letting down my followers. So I kept making comics even though I just really did not want to.
From my break, I’ve come to realize that I was caring a bit too much about the numbers. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone with posts about my original characters or things for other fandoms so I barely made things like that, and when I did they didn’t perform well and I felt let down.
All in all: the break taught me that maybe pressuring myself to draw something that I wasn’t passionate about WASN’T actually good (wow!) and would not help me grow artistically at all (astonishing concept). I’m not interested in Transformers anymore and I likely won’t be drawing anything for TF that much, if ever. I don’t care about the numbers as much as I used to and I just want to post about my original characters because I love them and I want to draw them more and give them more attention.
If this bothers anyone because they would only want to stay for TF content, then I don’t know what to say because I won’t be drawing much for that if at all. I want to post about my ocs because they make me happy and I have an interest in them so! That’s what I’ll be doing from now on. Thank you :]