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Stark and Fluid Visions

@kerravonsen / kerravonsen.tumblr.com

I am the kat that walks by itself, and all places are alike to me.
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cailjei

Written by: @cailjei

Art by: @kerravonsen

Beta read by: @hailxhydra

Word Count: 7187

Archive Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Pairing(s): Bruce Banner & Loki

Character(s): Bruce Banner, Loki (Marvel), Other Avengers

Tags: Dragon Loki (Marvel), BAMF Bruce Banner, Angst, POV Bruce Banner, POV Loki, Post-Thor: The Dark World, Post-Avengers: Age of Ultron, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Shapeshifter Loki (Marvel)

Summary: After Thor: The Dark World, Loki ends up on Earth, wounded and in the form of a dragon. Bruce Banner just wants to keep the world safe from a dragon that mysteriously appeared in the Black Forest.

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kerravonsen

Is Me!

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So somebody on my Facebook posted this. And I’ve seen sooooo many memes like it. Images of a canvas with nothing but a slash cut into it, or a giant blurry square of color, or a black circle on a white canvas. There are always hundreds of comments about how anyone could do that and it isn’t really art, or stories of the time someone dropped a glove on the floor of a museum and people started discussing the meaning of the piece, assuming it was an abstract found-objects type of sculpture.

The painting on the left is a bay or lake or harbor with mountains in the background and some people going about their day in the foreground. It’s very pretty and it is skillfully painted. It’s a nice piece of art. It’s also just a landscape. I don’t recognize a signature style, the subject matter is far too common to narrow it down. I have no idea who painted that image.

The painting on the right I recognized immediately. When I was studying abstraction and non-representational art, I didn’t study this painter in depth, but I remember the day we learned about him and specifically about this series of paintings. His name was Ad Reinhart, and this is one painting from a series he called the ultimate paintings. (Not ultimate as in the best, but ultimate as in last.)

The day that my art history teacher showed us Ad Reinhart’s paintings, one guy in the class scoffed and made a comment that it was a scam, that Reinhart had slapped some black paint on the canvas and pretentious people who wanted to look smart gave him money for it. My teacher shut him down immediately. She told him that this is not a canvas that someone just painted black. It isn’t easy to tell from this photo, but there are groups of color, usually squares of very very very dark blue or red or green or brown. They are so dark that, if you saw them on their own, you would call each of them black. But when they are side by side their differences are apparent. Initially you stare at the piece thinking that THAT corner of the canvas is TRUE black. Then you begin to wonder if it is a deep green that only appears black because the area next to it is a deep, deep red. Or perhaps the “blue” is the true black and that red is actually brown. Or perhaps the blue is violet and the color next to it is the true black. The piece challenges the viewer’s perception. By the time you move on to the next painting, you’re left to wonder if maybe there have been other instances in which you believe something to be true but your perception is warped by some outside factor. And then you wonder if ANY of the colors were truly black. How can anything be cut and dry, black and white, when even black itself isn’t as absolute as you thought it was?

People need to understand that not all art is about portraying a realistic image, and that technical skills (like the ability to paint a scene that looks as though it may have been photographed) are not the only kind of artistic skills. Some art is meant to be pretty or look like something. Other art is meant to carry a message or an idea, to provoke thought.

Reinhart’s art is utterly genius.

“But anyone could have done that! It doesn’t take any special skill! I could have done that!”

Ok. Maybe you could have. But you didn’t.

Give abstract art some respect. It’s more important than you realize.

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Concept and the audiences interpretation is just as important as technical ability in a lot of peices.

I remember this one time I went to the museum of modern art in Sydney with my mother and in the foyer was this enormous wall sized canvas made up of hundreds of squares of seemingly random colours. My mum always does the “you could do so much better I can’t beleive that got into a gallery” schtic and we walked past and looked at rhe rest of the gallery but that painting was on my mind.

It bothered me that I couldn’t see a pattern in the colours but each of them HAD to have a reason. It wouldn’t be in this gallery for nothing.

On the way out we read the artists commentary plaque and it said that the painting was a mental health journal. every day three times a day the artist painted a square in a colour corresponding to how he felt. Read top to bottom left to right it cataloged his emotions for 6 months.

We stood back and saw the bright yellows and the soft pinks and saw how sometimes the calm blues faded into angry oranges and bright hot reds. And we saw how the further we looked along the less bright sunny colours were seen. How even the angry flaming colours turned to dark painful reds. The blues became more prominent and in the centre there was a vertical line. 9 panels entirely black

And we knew that for three days straight he had felt so entirely helpless that he couldn’t see any colour at all.

It was so painful to read this wall of colour knowing what it meant. Seeing someone’s descent into a depressive period like that. You walked across the room hoping to see the bright sunny yellows and leaf greens again. And after seeing those black panels you began to feel releif that something might have been even a lighter shade of grey. Because it wasn’t hopeless blackness.

Yeah. Anyone could have painted that. But they didn’t. And it didn’t make any sense until we bothered to find out why. And then it was raw and honest and had us in tears hoping that this artist wouldn’t ever have to paint a black square again.

I took a photo of the painting and the artists description so I would remember who he was. But a few years later I lost all my files in a hard drive crash and I haven’t ever been able to find that painting again. Even 10 years later I still remember it and I still want to know if he’s okay

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Some people think art is outrageously overpriced and a scam because the only art that they are aware of is the famous art. But the huge prices for that are not because of the art, they are because of the fame. And that is 5% of all art. Any creative career, whether that be art, or acting, or music, or writing, the money breaks down like this: 5% make the huge bucks, 10% make a living, and the rest make pennies. And it isn't because only 15% of them are talented, or that 85% of them are lazy. I think part of the reason is that the gatekeepers (the publishers, the galleries) only want to support the 5% because that's where the easy money is. (Not the most money. The most money is in the long tail, the 85%, but it requires a different business model, which people find hard to do. Amazon managed it. Print-on-demand managed it. But not the brick-and-mortar players.) Once somebody is famous, they are an easy sell. You don't have to figure out whether they are any good, you don't have to know anything about art at all, you just have to know their name.

A friend of mine told me about an art competition he saw. The first place went to a piece of crap made by someone famous. The second place went to a piece which was utterly brilliant, but not made by someone famous. The judges were hedging their bets.

I laughed to myself at the commenter who said why buy a landscape when you could point and click and capture the image with your own phone. Dude, photography is an art! My brother-in-law is a photographer. Not professional, it's a hobby. But he's good, very good. He told me his secret, the secret of every photographer: "Take 100 photos. Pick out the best one. Throw away the rest. Repeat."

Actually, you know what the saddest thing about all this is? The fact that people shy away from making their own creations because you can only "do art" if you are a "professional artist". Or "do music", or "do writing".

Thank God for fan writers, who haven't fallen into this trap.

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mcu meme  - 4/10 scenes.

It’s the unspoken truth of humanity that you crave subjugation.
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I see this scene reblogged a lot off the one Hiddleston blog I follow, but it almost always ends with Loki’s “There are no men like me” line, which is completely missing the fucking point of the scene. And I get that it’s about the Hiddleslove, which is great, but it’s completely missing the fucking point of the scene. And it is a very important point.

This is one of my favourite moments in the whole MCU because of its incredible, incredible power and strength. This is not Captain America with his super soldier serum juice standing up to a god. This isn’t even a young man who might think he’s somehow got a chance against the prick with the horns. This is an old, old man who knows, who knows, that he’s probably going to die because of what he’s doing, but he is not going to kneel to another man like Hitler.

Maybe he did, seventy years ago. Maybe that’s why he would rather die now than remain on his knees. Maybe he *didn’t*. Maybe he fought against his own countrymen, because he wouldn’t kneel to a man like this. Maybe he’s always been one to stand up. Maybe he lost everything once because of it. Everything except his integrity, and maybe he’s ready to die instead of risking losing that now, at the end of his life. Maybe his integrity cost him so fucking much seventy years ago that he hopes he’s going to die for it now because he almost wishes he’d have died for it then, but if he’s going to die for it, he’s goddamn well going to die with it.

Maybe he’s a Holocaust survivor. Maybe he’s Jewish. Maybe he’s gay. Maybe he’s Romani. We don’t know.

We don’t know anything about this man, except he’s the bravest goddamn person in the Marvel Cinematic Universe.

And that’s why it bothers me every time I see this scene go by with his response cut from it. Because it’s missing. the. point.

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kerravonsen

Amen.

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Batman had been making himself scarce since the media storm started, but he shows up for an interstellar mission when no one else could go. Clark just wishes he knew what to say to fix things, but that can wait until after the mission.
Unfortunately unfriendly aliens, crash landings, falling trees, and the freezing cold makes everything much more difficult. Now Clark can only hope they can stay alive long enough for the rest of the League to find them. There are worse times to have a heart to heart with his best friend, right?
(There is a much worse time. Figures that’s when Bruce would stop avoiding it.)

I was going through a bit of a rough time a little while ago, and decided to try to find a community/fest, because having other people to talk to and encourage always helps. I’m aro/ace, and was a bit exhausted from writing so much romance in my last fandom. I thought it’d be nice to go back to the start with a new fandom, where I wouldn’t have to force a romance if I didn’t get that far. I found a big bang fest that looked like it would work for me, as I had an idea I’d put on the back burner a while back for those two characters. The rules said nothing about gen (only relationships, which the relationship was the primary focus for that idea, even if ambiguous on romance), so I sent the mods a message asking if that was okay. Most fests I’ve been in tend to accept gen, or really any fic so long as it’s within the proper fandom and/or characters, so I wasn’t expecting a no.

I was told no. I was told romance was the only thing they accepted, though pre-slash was okay. Pre-slash still implies romance though. When I spoke with the mods directly to clarify, I told them I was aro/ace and uncomfortable with trying to force a romance at the moment. I was told once again, no. It had to be romantic, but I could post during amnesty week with all the late people and no chance to be matched for art, because they were a small fest and always welcomed new people. I was told they had nothing against gen fic, some of them even wrote it from time to time! This was just not the place for it. So I could either force myself to pretend to not be aro because they could sometimes write fic with no romance, or I could give them free advertising by posting with them, but no matter how hard I worked on my fic, it would never be worthy of actually being part of the fest. They were all very polite about it. I just had no space in their little group.

I left feeling broken. Like if I could only be normal for once, I could have a space there. I had already started writing a bit, but even before the fic was more than three pages, before anyone knew what the plot was, it was denied.

Things got worse before they got better, but when I got my head above the water, I knew the fic had to change. I couldn’t stop writing it, because then I’d be silenced. I also couldn’t keep writing it as it was, because every word hurt. So I kept the plot I had planned from the start, then added Batman being outted as Ace. It was going to add roughly 10k to the word count, but I’d seen so much aphobia recently that it needed a place to go. Every word still hurt, but it now had a reason to.

This fic is to say I’m here. I’m not silent. And because it’s no longer for a fest, I could and did add more characters for team feels. Friendship is a valid and important relationship, more important to me than romance ever could be. And friendship is just as deep and meaningful as anything a romantic pairing could be. So there’s no romance in this fic, though there’s a few ambiguous relationships you’re welcome to take however you like. There’s no art for the fic, because I wasn’t allowed in the group as I was, but the story won’t be erased because of that.

I’m not broken.

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kerravonsen

(applause) (standing ovation) Bravo! Go you! I'm Ace myself... and while I've never (fortunately) felt as if that made me "abnormal", I do find it frustrating, very frustrating, that friendship is seen as second-best. I mean, it's not that I dislike romance, but why does it have to be all the romance all the time?

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Temples are built for gods. Knowing this a farmer builds a small temple to see what kind of god turns up.

Arepo built a temple in his field, a humble thing, some stones stacked up to make a cairn, and two days later a god moved in.

“Hope you’re a harvest god,” Arepo said, and set up an altar and burnt two stalks of wheat. “It’d be nice, you know.” He looked down at the ash smeared on the stone, the rocks all laid askew, and coughed and scratched his head. “I know it’s not much,” he said, his straw hat in his hands. “But - I’ll do what I can. It’d be nice to think there’s a god looking after me.”

The next day he left a pair of figs, the day after that he spent ten minutes of his morning seated by the temple in prayer. On the third day, the god spoke up.

“You should go to a temple in the city,” the god said. Its voice was like the rustling of the wheat, like the squeaks of fieldmice running through the grass. “A real temple. A good one. Get some real gods to bless you. I’m no one much myself, but I might be able to put in a good word?” It plucked a leaf from a tree and sighed. “I mean, not to be rude. I like this temple. It’s cozy enough. The worship’s been nice. But you can’t honestly believe that any of this is going to bring you anything.”

“This is more than I was expecting when I built it,” Arepo said, laying down his scythe and lowering himself to the ground. “Tell me, what sort of god are you anyway?”

“I’m of the fallen leaves,” it said. “The worms that churn beneath the earth. The boundary of forest and of field. The first hint of frost before the first snow falls. The skin of an apple as it yields beneath your teeth. I’m a god of a dozen different nothings, scraps that lead to rot, momentary glimpses. A change in the air, and then it’s gone.”

The god heaved another sigh. “There’s no point in worship in that, not like War, or the Harvest, or the Storm. Save your prayers for the things beyond your control, good farmer. You’re so tiny in the world. So vulnerable. Best to pray to a greater thing than me.”

Arepo plucked a stalk of wheat and flattened it between his teeth. “I like this sort of worship fine,” he said. “So if you don’t mind, I think I’ll continue.”

“Do what you will,” said the god, and withdrew deeper into the stones. “But don’t say I never warned you otherwise.”

Arepo would say a prayer before the morning’s work, and he and the god contemplated the trees in silence. Days passed like that, and weeks, and then the Storm rolled in, black and bold and blustering. It flooded Arepo’s fields, shook the tiles from his roof, smote his olive tree and set it to cinder. The next day, Arepo and his sons walked among the wheat, salvaging what they could. The little temple had been strewn across the field, and so when the work was done for the day, Arepo gathered the stones and pieced them back together.

“Useless work,” the god whispered, but came creeping back inside the temple regardless. “There wasn’t a thing I could do to spare you this.”

“We’ll be fine,” Arepo said. “The storm’s blown over. We’ll rebuild. Don’t have much of an offering for today,” he said, and laid down some ruined wheat, “but I think I’ll shore up this thing’s foundations tomorrow, how about that?” 

The god rattled around in the temple and sighed.

A year passed, and then another. The temple had layered walls of stones, a roof of woven twigs. Arepo’s neighbors chuckled as they passed it. Some of their children left fruit and flowers. And then the Harvest failed, the gods withdrew their bounty. In Arepo’s field the wheat sprouted thin and brittle. People wailed and tore their robes, slaughtered lambs and spilled their blood, looked upon the ground with haunted eyes and went to bed hungry. Arepo came and sat by the temple, the flowers wilted now, the fruit shriveled nubs, Arepo’s ribs showing through his chest, his hands still shaking, and murmured out a prayer. 

“There is nothing here for you,” said the god, hudding in the dark. “There is nothing I can do. There is nothing to be done.” It shivered, and spat out its words. “What is this temple but another burden to you?”

“We -” Arepo said, and his voice wavered. “So it’s a lean year,” he said. “We’ve gone through this before, we’ll get through this again. So we’re hungry,” he said. “We’ve still got each other, don’t we? And a lot of people prayed to other gods, but it didn’t protect them from this. No,” he said, and shook his head, and laid down some shriveled weeds on the altar. “No, I think I like our arrangement fine.”

“There will come worse,” said the god, from the hollows of the stone. “And there will be nothing I can do to save you.”

The years passed. Arepo rested a wrinkled hand upon the temple of stone and some days spent an hour there, lost in contemplation with the god.

And one fateful day, from across the wine-dark seas, came War.

Arepo came stumbling to his temple now, his hand pressed against his gut, anointing the holy site with his blood. Behind him, his wheat fields burned, and the bones burned black in them. He came crawling on his knees to a temple of hewed stone, and the god rushed out to meet him.

“I could not save them,” said the god, its voice a low wail. “I am sorry. I am sorry. I am so so sorry.” The leaves fell burning from the trees, a soft slow rain of ash. “I have done nothing! All these years, and I have done nothing for you!”

“Shush,” Arepo said, tasting his own blood, his vision blurring. He propped himself up against the temple, forehead pressed against the stone in prayer. “Tell me,” he mumbled. “Tell me again. What sort of god are you?”

“I -” said the god, and reached out, cradling Arepo’s head, and closed its eyes and spoke.

“I’m of the fallen leaves,” it said, and conjured up the image of them. “The worms that churn beneath the earth. The boundary of forest and of field. The first hint of frost before the first snow falls. The skin of an apple as it yields beneath your teeth.” Arepo’s lips parted in a smile.

“I am the god of a dozen different nothings,” it said. “The petals in bloom that lead to rot, the momentary glimpses. A change in the air -” Its voice broke, and it wept. “Before it’s gone.”

“Beautiful,” Arepo said, his blood staining the stones, seeping into the earth. “All of them. They were all so beautiful.”

And as the fields burned and the smoke blotted out the sun, as men were trodden in the press and bloody War raged on, as the heavens let loose their wrath upon the earth, Arepo the sower lay down in his humble temple, his head sheltered by the stones, and returned home to his god.

Sora found the temple with the bones within it, the roof falling in upon them.

“Oh, poor god,” she said, “With no-one to bury your last priest.” Then she paused, because she was from far away. “Or is this how the dead are honored here?” The god roused from its contemplation.

“His name was Arepo,” it said, “He was a sower.”

Sora startled, a little, because she had never before heard the voice of a god. “How can I honor him?” She asked.

“Bury him,” the god said, “Beneath my altar.”

“All right,” Sora said, and went to fetch her shovel.

“Wait,” the god said when she got back and began collecting the bones from among the broken twigs and fallen leaves. She laid them out on a roll of undyed wool, the only cloth she had. “Wait,” the god said, “I cannot do anything for you. I am not a god of anything useful.”

Sora sat back on her heels and looked at the altar to listen to the god.

“When the Storm came and destroyed his wheat, I could not save it,” the god said, “When the Harvest failed and he was hungry, I could not feed him. When War came,” the god’s voice faltered. “When War came, I could not protect him. He came bleeding from the battle to die in my arms.” Sora looked down again at the bones.

“I think you are the god of something very useful,” she said.

“What?” the god asked.

Sora carefully lifted the skull onto the cloth. “You are the god of Arepo.”

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Generations passed. The village recovered from its tragedies—homes rebuilt, gardens re-planted, wounds healed. The old man who once lived on the hill and spoke to stone and rubble had long since been forgotten, but the temple stood in his name. Most believed it to be empty, as the god who resided there long ago had fallen silent. Yet, any who passed the decaying shrine felt an ache in their hearts, as though mourning for a lost friend. The cold that seeped from the temple entrance laid their spirits low, and warded off any potential visitors, save for the rare and especially oblivious children who would leave tiny clusters of pink and white flowers that they picked from the surrounding meadow.

The god sat in his peaceful home, staring out at the distant road, to pedestrians, workhorses, and carriages, raining leaves that swirled around bustling feet. How long had it been? The world had progressed without him, for he knew there was no help to be given. The world must be a cruel place, that even the useful gods have abandoned, if farms can flood, harvests can run barren, and homes can burn, he thought.

He had come to understand that humans are senseless creatures, who would pray to a god that cannot grant wishes or bless upon them good fortune. Who would maintain a temple and bring offerings with nothing in return. Who would share their company and meditate with such a fruitless deity. Who would bury a stranger without the hope for profit. What bizarre, futile kindness they had wasted on him. What wonderful, foolish, virtuous, hopeless creatures, humans were.

So he painted the sunset with yellow leaves, enticed the worms to dance in their soil, flourished the boundary between forest and field with blossoms and berries, christened the air with a biting cold before winter came, ripened the apples with crisp, red freckles to break under sinking teeth, and a dozen other nothings, in memory of the man who once praised the god’s work on his dying breath.

“Hello, God of Every Humble Beauty in the World,” called a familiar voice.

The squinting corners of the god’s eyes wept down onto curled lips. “Arepo,” he whispered, for his voice was hoarse from its hundred-year mutism.

“I am the god of devotion, of small kindnesses, of unbreakable bonds. I am the god of selfless, unconditional love, of everlasting friendships, and trust,” Arepo avowed, soothing the other with every word.

“That’s wonderful, Arepo,” he responded between tears, “I’m so happy for you—such a powerful figure will certainly need a grand temple. Will you leave to the city to gather more worshippers? You’ll be adored by all.”

“No,” Arepo smiled.

“Farther than that, to the capitol, then? Thank you for visiting here before your departure.”

“No, I will not go there, either,” Arepo shook his head and chuckled.

“Farther still? What ambitious goals, you must have. There is no doubt in my mind that you will succeed, though,” the elder god continued.

“Actually,” interrupted Arepo, “I’d like to stay here, if you’ll have me.”

The other god was struck speechless. “…. Why would you want to live here?”

“I am the god of unbreakable bonds and everlasting friendships. And you are the god of Arepo.”

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kerravonsen

Oh my this made me cry.

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Hello everyone,

Given the current events and social climate of the world, the mods have been discussing some of the sensitive elements within fandom.

Upon reflection, and given the ongoing Derek Chauvin trial, we have decided that AUs featuring law enforcement will not be allowed to be a part of our event. The only exception is for characters who are law enforcement in canon, but they'll be given a disclaimer once entered into the bang. The disclaimer will simply ask participants to proceed with sensitivity, given the long-standing systematic racism, internal and external trauma many POC have faced by law enforcement of all levels, and the romanticizing of the profession that comes with the media.

There are alternatives (like private investigators, lawyers, etc) that can be used in lieu of police and other law enforcement agencies that can depict investigations without including police and other law enforcement.

We wanted to bring this change to you early, to ensure you have time to research alternatives if this was a route you were considering.

Please reach out with any questions.

Thank you.

- The MRBB Mod Team

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kerravonsen

Fair enough.

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Anonymous asked:

Hello! So, I am signed up as an artist and am currently working on a piece and have a question. Are we allowed to have an art version of a beta? Someone who can concrit our art as we create for this event? Or do artwork submissions have to be completely and entirely unseen until the end?

Yes, you are more than welcome to have an art beta! As long as your piece is not posted publicly prior to claims, and comes to claims unseen by anyone who would be doing the claiming, you're good.

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Anonymous asked:

Hey!

I am interested in writting for a specific character that is featured in two phases. Can I apply as an author in two phases? If so are there any limitations? And if I don't find something to inspire me in one phase, is that a problem?

Thank you in advance :-)

Hello! We are glad you are so enthusiastic to write for the event! Authors can claim three (3) piece of art during claims (2 per phase). If you don’t feel inspired by anything in a particular phase you have no commitments to claim anything.

Thank you so much for reaching out!

The Mods

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Hi! I'm looking at the Sign-up forms, and I'm a bit confused; I've never done one these before. What do you mean by "Primary URL" and "Primary Account Site"? I'm on both AO3 and Dreamwidth (and I'm on Tumblr ONLY because I wanted to sign up for this). So what would I put on the form?

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Hey there,

Your primary URL is the one you use most. This is also where you’ll be posting your work potentially.

The thing is, with Ao3 users you cannot contact them directly through Ao3. So we ask for a secondary user to add another form of contact in case we can’t get in touch with you!

Thanks for asking,

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kerravonsen

Thanks for answering.

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Introducing The Phases 

TV Verse - for characters in TV properties (Netflix, Disney+, ABC, etc) 

Begins: Feb 28th
Posting Period Starts: Aug 8th

Earth’s Mightiest - for characters living on Earth 

Begins: Mar 21st
Posting Period Starts: Aug 23rd

Space & Magic - for characters in space or who possess magic

Begins: Apr 14th
Posting Period Starts: Sept 16th

Spiderverse - for all of the Spider characters

Begins: Apr 27th
Posting Period Starts: Oct 17th

Rarepair - for pairings with 2K works or less on Ao3

Begins: May 11th
Posting Period Starts: Oct 31st

Multiverse - for X-Men, Fan4, crossovers, and AU’s

Begins: May 25th
Posting Period Starts: Nov 14th
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kerravonsen

Yay!

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The Marvel Reverse Big Bang is proud to announce that our posting has begun! 

Tune in to see all of the amazing works that came from our event! 

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