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@makhaia

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Sup peeps I don’t really use my tumblr but when I do I use it to vent. My names Makhaia (ma-Kai-yuh) and I’m currently 20

Welcome to my page!!

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Losing faith out here yall I don’t think I’m ever going to be “the one” for anyone. Every time I think I have someone good they leave me. I wanna stop hurting myself like this now. I was so in love too this time. I feel numb without him. I’m done being left behind.

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I wonder why I’m hard to love?

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It’s my birthday today drop a coin! $MakhaiaT

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My top male crushes

  1. Evan peters

2. Ross lynch

3. Vinnie hacker

4. Cameron boyce R.i.p 🕊 🙏 🌹

5. Dominic Fike

6. Michael B. Jordan

7. Luka Sabbat

8. Austin Butler

9. Jamie Campbell bower

10. Finn wolfhard

11. Brett gray

12. Julio macias

13. Bryson tiller

14. Brent fayiaz

15. Nle Choppa

16. Trevor Jackson

17. Jugkook

18. Keith powers

19. Algee Smith

20. Jordan Calloway

21. Drew starkey

22. Jonathan Daviss

23. Sturniolo triplets

24. Jordan fisher

25. Charlie Gillespie

26. Zayn malik

27. Steve lacy

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Every day the cut gets deeper and deeper my heart feels a little more broken and I can’t do anything to help it anymore all I’ve ever done was love my partners and I continue to get played and used I’m at the point in life where I think no one will ever love or understand or appreciate me ever I wish I never met them I wish I made better decisions and chose myself before them I wish I could find real love and happiness and not someone just putting on a facade to get what they want out of me

I don’t want to be broken anymore

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Why do I even try with these people when all they do is prove my point further? I just keep torturing myself with these relationships because I can’t let go

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Maybe it’s me?

I’m starting to think that I’m the problem when I comes to everything bad that happens to me. I’ve lost friends , a boyfriend who I thought I’d be with longer, and my apartment in the span of 3 months. And maybe it’s just my fault because I’ve done bad things and this is my karma. I feel like I have nothing now.

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libbee

How my attitude on cheating changed as a gemini moon and venus.

Stereotype or not, but I do admit to being a flirtatious person in my past. This was before I had indepth knowledge of astrology. I was not a "player" but a deeply insecure person who sought validation from men in terms of my intellect and personality.

In fantasy, it is an illusion that flirty people are cool, unconventional, wired differently, very charming and confident in their pick up game. The truth is that i might appear charming and cool on the outside because i was spontaneous and mentally stimulating but on the inside I was desperate for approval and to hear compliments.

i was never in an actual relationship but i did do double timing with two parties and did not commit to either one. In hindsight, it was very shitty of me to be being deceptive like that. But in truth I was so desperate and so empty and hollow that nothing was ever enough to fill that void. My flirtatiousness was attempt to check myself if my jokes land on people, if i have "still got it", if i am important enough for people to desire me sexually.

I dont remember if i actually ever truly enjoyed myself in any of the encounters. If there was any thrill, it was only passing and for a short moment. So it was never enough to be validated by one man. I was always looking for the next best thing to validate my existence. In the moment, i felt like i was enjoying life but when it all ended i felt like i disappointed myself. I dont know if i did it because i actually desired it or because i was imitating what other people were doing in herd mindset.

Now with self transformation, I know that I will never flirt or cheat with somebody else. It is not even about my partner but myself. There is character development in me. If i commit one fuck up, i will have to compensate for it by going out of my way to pretend to be good person. If i commit one fuck up, my partner's trust will be broken forever and I cannot afford to lose that. If i commit one fuck up, I will fear its consequnces and most importantly feel ashamed and guilty for not holding up to my promise to my partner. Finally, there is a better way to fill that "void". I will rather use creative or spiritual or psychological tools than to depend on people for approval. Money is valuable but character is richness.

🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵

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makhaia

From one Gemini Venus to another this was so well said.

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simsibeth

Mods folder

I recently moved from a Mac to a PC so I had to redo my sims 4 mods folder. Here’s what has been working for me!

Directly in the Mods folder

Here I have 3 folders (_cas, buildbuy & Poses) that have other folders within them. The rest are just extracted zip folders that I can easily swap out as the mods get updated. Check out my list of mod recommendations here!

_cas

This is by far my biggest folder, because most of my CC is CAS related. I like to set my up using a keyword (i.e clothes, hair), then a specific (i.e clothes_dresses, hair_toddler), so that I can have multiple folders in the same category. This is my little bypass to not being able to have folders within folders within folders. I sort by type (hair, clothes, skin blends) rather than creator as it’s easier to find and remove items if they’re sorted by type. I do the same method within my buildbuy folder (I rarely use buildbuy cc). I’m slowly reblogging all my cc onto my tumblr. Check them out here!

Poses

Here I like to sort by creator, rather than type of pose. I only have folders for creators that I have a lot of content from, otherwise they’re just free floating in the folder. I also keep accessories for poses in this folder so they’re easy to find and remove. I’m very new to using poses so my method for organising this folder will likely change. If you have any suggestions please let me know!!!

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cluster92

jason, in a high voice, holding barbie: hey ken! I was thinking about going back to school and starting a career!

tim, in a deep voice, holding ken: nonsense, barbie. you’re staying home and having my kids

y/n: what the fuck are you guys doing?

jason: playing systemic oppression

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heavyrain-dc
“Sometimes quiet people have a lot to say, but they don’t open up to just anyone.”

— Susan Gale

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