@marauderseranetwork​’s august event → sirius black

Friendships → Lily Evans & Sirius Black 

It was 1971 and Sirius was sorted into the wrong House and his family didn’t send him any letters, but he couldn’t quite care because he’d made the most wonderful friends.

It was 1972 and his parents ignored him all summer as well, but James hugged him and said it’d be okay, and that Sirius could stay with him if he needed it. It was 1972 and Sirius believed James because James was his best friend so he had to be right.

It was 1973 and Sirius was starting to think James was wrong and it wouldn’t be okay, because his dad would hit him instead of Kreacher when he was angry. It was 1973 and Sirius had nightmares every night. It was 1973 and Sirius realised he hated his family. It was 1973 and he realised he had probably lost Regulus forever.

It was 1974 and Sirius had a black eye when he came to school, and James punched a wall when he found out where it came from. It was 1974 and Sirius got his first girlfriend, because that’s what he was supposed to do, even if he felt sick every time she touched him, every time most people touched him. It was 1974 and Sirius suggested the idea to James and Peter in secret that they become Animagi to help Remus with his transition. It was 1974 and Sirius broke down crying on the train back to King’s Cross.

It was 1975 and Sirius flinched any time someone who wasn’t James, Peter, or Remus tried to touch him. It was 1975 and Sirius despised being called ‘Mr. Black.’ It was 1975 and he and Lily were alone in the common room and he couldn’t breathe whenever she asked how his family was. It was 1975 and he accidentally told her everything, gaining another best friend and support system. It was 1975 and Remus cried when he found out what the others had done for him. It was 1975 and they succeeded in making sure Remus didn’t injure himself badly. It was 1975 and the joy on his friend’s face kept him afloat for awhile once he had to go back to Grimmuald Place, and he thought he might be in love with Moony.

It was 1976 and Sirius couldn’t help but drown now, Remus no longer keeping him afloat. It was 1976 and Sirius’ eye was bruised and swollen, cheek bleeding, nose probably broken, and barely able to walk as he ran away to James’. It was 1976 and his parents were always either screaming at him, hexing him, hitting him, or completely ignoring his existence, and he just couldn’t anymore. It was 1976 the look in Regulus’ eyes as Sirius packed killed him because he knew Regulus wasn’t lost to him. It was 1976 and he couldn’t sleep alone now without waking up thrashing and screaming. It was 1976 and Remus spent more nights in Sirius’ bed than his own. It was 1976 and on one of the nights Remus was helping Sirius back into reality after one of his night terrors, Sirius kissed Remus for the first time. It was 1976 and Remus was one of Sirius’ best friends and his boyfriend.

It was 1977 and they were all fighting in this war once they were out of school. It was 1977 and Lily let herself love James, because she said that if he would love a Muggle born at a time like this, he musn’t be all bad, and she was right. It was 1977 and Regulus hadn’t spoken to Sirius once, though he did smile a sad sort of smile at him in passing. It was 1977 and James, Lily, Remus, Sirius, and Peter all joined the Order of the Phoenix at Dumbledore’s request. It was 1977 and they were barely legal age and they were officially soldiers in this war.

It was 1978 and James married Lily because the war didn’t seem to be ending soon, and they wanted it done in case they didn’t live long enough to regret not marrying. It was 1978 and Remus got a flat together with Sirius. It was 1978 and tension between the two was high, Sirius wanting what James had with Lily, and Remus constantly rebutting with reasons it was a bad idea, usually to do with his lycanthropy.

It was 1979 and Sirius and Remus had broken up, stress of the war and the Order and conflicting desires for the future ruining everything. It was 1979 and sometimes one of them would disappear for weeks on end on a mission. It was 1979 and they were constantly terrified the people they loved were dead, a fear that was all to often realised. It was 1979 and Voldemort seemed to be winning this war. It was 1979 and Lily was pregnant.

It was 1980 and Lily and James were forced into hiding, a prophecy putting them in more danger than they were previously. It was 1980 and Sirius hated himself for wishing the prophecy was about whoever the other baby was. It was 1980 and Peter was the Secret Keeper under Sirius’ advice. It was 1980 and Sirius didn’t trust himself enough to be Secret Keeper because Dumbledore thinks Remus might be a spy, and Sirius knew he’d end up revealing the location to his Moony. It was 1980 and Harry’s birth brought them all together again for the first time in entirely too long. It was 1980 and Sirius and Remus fixed things between them, knowing they were happier with than without each other.

It was 1981 and Peter was being really distant, on edge almost. It was 1981 and Peter betrayed Lily and James. It was 1981 and Sirius couldn’t believe that, couldn’t believe Peter would do that without seeing it himself. It was 1981 and Sirius saw his best friend, his safe place, his James, dead on the ground, without even his wand. It was 1981 and Sirius wasn’t even allowed his godson. It was 1981 and Sirius lost all hope. It was 1981 and Sirius lost everything.

hey not to be dramatic but I would die for sirius black

mortuus est, et periit.

featuring: sirius and regulus black. setting: a clearing in the woods surrounding the muggle park near grimmauld place, where the black brothers used to play as children. word count: 1345 !! requested by: anonymous.

a/n: i may have (  unintentionally )  broken my own heart with this piece. but just . spirit-regulus and sirius give me so many feels ?!?!?!?! i regret nothing.

Arms draped over the long stretch of mahogany bar, chin resting against the dark, scuffed wood, Sirius locked bleary, red-rimmed eyes with his own disheveled reflection in the mirror hanging directly above the display of numerous, name-brand bottles situated behind the bar (  advertising all manner of muggle drink, none of which was strong enough to stave off the seemingly bottomless well of emotion threatening to pull him down, down, down—into the abyss of mental turmoil and self-castigation. )

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sirius was a brave, clever, and energetic man, and such men are not usually content to sit at home in hiding while they believe others to be in danger. (insp)

It’s been 14 years, and still not a day goes by that I don’t miss your dad.

Hi I’m not dead!! Have a Sirius!!

fandom family edit for @penelopeclearwater  ☰  sirius black        “ w e ’ v e   a l l   g o t   b o t h   l i g h t   a n d   d a r k   i n s i d e   u s ”

character aesthetic       ×  – —   sirius orion black

                  Am I coming out of left field?